Unwanted Love (book 2) [Ian Gallagher Fanfiction]

Chapter Two

SORRY, IT TOOK ME AGES TO UPDATE THIS STORY, I HAD EXAMS AND I THOUGH NOBODY WOULD READ IT. BUT I DECIDED TO POST IT ANYWAY BECAUSE I LOVE WRITING AND WHO KNOWS IF MAYBE ONE DAY SOMEONE WILL LIKE MY STORY.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Shorty after we got out the prison, every sweet memories of Ian and our story came into my mind.
I barely can hear what Andrew is saying, not like I care, since Ian and I broke up I was never be able to love anyone. Maybe because I was rejecting any form of love or maybe because as a human, we naturally escape from pain.
And Love was what was causing me pain.

He leaves to go to buy something for lunch, I guess.
I take a long breath and decide to read what Ian announced about the day of the arrest.
A smile grows on my face as I read that he never even mentioned my name.
If he did, I could have took his side and maybe he wouldn't have been in prison all those years.
But he decided to save my life, rather than his.
A tear falls down on my cheek.

I stand up and decide to walk to the prison, and talk to him, alone. Asking him the reason why he protected me.
Gabriel approaches me "Miss Eleanor, may I help you?"
I nod "Uhm... I- I need to talk to ..Ian Gallagher"
"Sure, i'll call him."
I sit on the table waiting for him to arrive.

He looks handsome, I missed him so much, his ginger hair and his sweet strong and powerful eyes I've almost forgot in all those years.

He smile lighting as the guard walks over the room.
I take a long breath and finally look at him.
"H-hi" I can't stand his gaze on me and I quickly look down the paper.
He laughs noticing my shyness, probably wondering where the rebel Eleanor went.
"I asked to ... to turn off every cameras, so we can speak freely..."
I say, still looking down to the table.
"Cool" he says smiling.
"So... why did you protect me? I mean, I could testimony in your favor and maybe you wouldn't be here." I finally ask using all my courage and forcing myself to look at him in the eyes.

"Because, look at you now, Eleanor. That's what you are. That is your world, dating a rich boy with a good work and having a happy family. You do NOT belong to my world." He says smiling even tho I could perceive some sadness in his voice.
"It took me so long to move on, we had plans, I wanted you by my side Ian... anyone else but you." I whisper as my eyes fill up with tears and I am forced to look up not to make those tears wet my face.
"I'm not enough for you." He takes my hand and shakes it.
"Go ahead, God made me a huge gift to let me meet you another time." He whispers to me and I smile.

The guard walks in and he quickly leaves my hand standing up.
"I don't want to collab. Can't you all understand it? I do. NOT. want. To. Collab." He shouts as the guard drives him to his cell.

And again, Ian Gallagher was leaving me, causing me pain and happiness at the same time.
How can I still love him this much, after all those years?
How could he say he's not enough for me, what if I was the wrong one?
Maybe I should just move on like he did. But how, if that was so easy, I wouldn't be here missing him, willing for his touch, for his love. Destroying myself with the memory of myself happy. I just realize that all those years spent having a ordinary life where I pretended to be happy were all useless and pointless because I am back to be that weak girl in front of a boy, who I will never be able to have.

I walk out of the prison and see 5 missed calls from Andrew, not even surprised, he's probably worried about me, wondering where I am.
I call him and assure him that I'm fine, saying I will be back in a while.
Andrew gives me lot of attention, which is probably the reason why I'm dating him, because he makes me the perfect girlfriend, the perfect daughter to my mom, and gives me the normality that Ian wouldn't be able to give me.

"Hi honey" I say, as soon as I enter our house.
"Where were you?" He demands taking off his shirt.
"I went to work, I had an idea and wanted to try to convince ..Ian.. Gallagher.. to collab" I say trying to look as I was not lying about everything.
"So, he accepted?"
"No he didn't... anyway it's already late, we could watch a movie or do something together "
"Don't be silly." He laughs "We are not teenagers anymore."
I nod smiling. "Yeah.. right"
I open Ian's dossier and starts to read it.
"I read it already, that creepy boy didn't say anything about that day. Someone in the prison, on the contrary, mentioned a girl.. so, according to my opinion, he probably had a girlfriend who may be involved in the case but he's trying to defend her by not saying anything?"

I suddendly close the dossier.
"Yeah.. maybe.." I say looking down to the floor.
I pick all the courage left in my body and try to look as confident as possible. " I heard he was a fuckboy so he probably didn't even remember the name of that girl" I say standing up and opening another dossier.
"You're probably right. I don't know how all those girls can fall in love with someone like him, by the way. A criminal. Aren't them scared? You can't never know if, when he's under drugs, he tries to take advantage of you or even worse, if he tries to hurt you." He says looking up on the floor.
"Ian would never do that.." I whisper.
"What?" Andrew asks, as he probably heard me...