until the end || book 6 of 'she's a dixon'

chapter 5

making our way through the walkers i had to let go of carl's hand a few times to let a walker through.

but we stayed together.

we all made it through the walkers and slipped off to the side to quietly discuss. we altered our plan and decided it's best for us to go to the quarry.

carl handed judith off to gabriel to take back to his church.

i have faith in gabriel. i know he can do it.

we then changed our line up. it was rick, sam, jessie, me, carl, ron, and then michonne.

night time approached and we were still making our way through the walkers.

while walking, sam let go of ricks hand and stood completely still. jessie tried to whisper and get him back on track.

i looked at rick with worried eyes. 'it's ok' he mouthed to me. i gave him a small nod and got a little closer to carl.

ron and rick joined in on trying to get sam back on track. sam them started crying pretty loudly.

oh no.

carl squeezed my hand a little tighter to try to show me it was ok. even though we both knew it isn't.

two walkers then attacked sam and he started screaming bloody murder. i looked over at rick and then to carl with my eyes wide open. jessie started screaming and crying as she watched her son get torn apart.

"come on, jessie, we have to go" carl said to her. then walkers swarmed onto her. my jaw dropped and i set go of her hand. but her hand was still gripped onto my wrist.

i tried yanking myself away from it but her muscles were locked. "rick. rick help me." i said out of panic and still trying to get my arm loose.

"dad" carl called out quietly trying to get his dad's attention. but rick was in complete shock.

"rick" i said right as a walker was coming towards me.

he then ran over and started chopping jessie's arm off with an axe. once he completely got it off, i fell backwards and carl quickly helped me back up.  he grabbed back onto my hand right as we heard a gun click. we turned around and it was ron.

"you" ron said pointing the gun at rick. michonne then went behind him and stuck her sword through his stomach. but his body's immediate reaction caused the gun to go off.

i then looked at carl and my mouth dropped and i immediately had tears running down my face.

the gun had shot him in the eye.

"dad" he said turning around towards rick in shock. "no" i whispered with more tears running down my face. carl then collapsed. rick ran over and picked carl up as michonne and i were killing off walkers.

i then started giving myself pep talks.

ok reagan, you have to make it through this. if carl doesn't survive this, you have to make it through this for him. keep aware. never let your guard down. you have to be calm to survive. help michonne kill off these walkers so we can get carl to the infirmary. he will be ok. denise will make this all better. we just have to get there safely.

i told myself these things as michonne and i made a path. we all ran inside and michonne shut the door behind us. michonne came over to rick and i and took off our sheets. as denise told rick to move, he came over to me. i was still freaking out.

he came over and gave me a bear hug. we both were crying. "he'll be ok" michonne said to both of us. i stayed in ricks arms as we watched what they were doing. i let go of rick and went over to the window.

all the walkers were coming our way.

"rick we need to kill them. now." i whispered. he nodded. i got out my bow and had all of my arrows ready. we both then went outside and started killing walkers.

michonne tried to stop us but eventually helped us. along with heath, spencer, and aaron. all the alexandrians eventually came out to help us.

we were all in a fight formation killing the walkers.

we were going to take back alexandria.

after fighting off the walkers for quite a while, a fire spread across on the lake. the walkersit took us off guard.  were starting to go towards it. "don't let up!" rick yelled. we eventually killed them all as dawn broke.

"you ok?" rick asked putting a hand on my shoulder. he was out of breath. we all were.

"reagan!" i heard my dad's voice from behind. i threw by bow down and sprinted towards him. i jumped up in the air and he caught me. i wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs on his back.

"daddy" i said with tears running down my face. "baby girl, thank god you're okay" he said putting his hand on the back of my hand.

"daddy carl got shot. his eye. denise is trying to save him right now" i said bursting out into tears. "hey it's alright. you survived tonight and so will he" he said rubbing my back.

i cried into his shoulder.

he held me for the rest of that night.

rick and i went back into the infirmary to stay with carl. he survived the procedure. he just hasn't woke up yet.

"rick, dad, can i have a minute alone with him" i asked. "yeah" rick said. he put his hand on my shoulder. dad kissed the top of my head and went out. i held carl's hand.

"carl, i don't know if you can hear me, but please fight though his. ok? please wake up. for the group. for judith. for your dad. for me. i can't do this thing without you. you're my partner in life. and like you said, it's me and you until the end. so you can't give up. not now. not ever. you can't leave me. me and you are going to survive this world. together. carl grimes i love you. please wake up." i said crying. he then squeezed my hand.

"i love you too reagan dixon" he whispered. i smiled.

i then smiled and grabbed onto his hand with both of mine and held it up to my face.

carl is going to be ok.