This Is Us

Chapter twenty: If you leave you die

Isabella pov

"Are you okay?" Aubrey quickly asks as I walk in, I nod my head and see that James is here already but he is to busy talking to Daniel. "have you called Danielle?" I ask and Aubrey nods her head "um yeah she said you and James are in charge she can't leave her daughter" Aubrey says and I sight "great" I say and walk to the couch to sit down "what's wrong?" Aubrey asks, sitting down beside me "what's wrong is so many people died today because of a stupid envelop" I say and look at the clock to see it is 8:45 pm, I get up from the couch "where you going?" she asks and I shrug "out" I say and walk out, I get into my car and start to make my way to a club nearby.

I take a sip from my beer and sight, "everything okay?" the bartender asks and I nod "yeah just a bad day at work" I say and he sights "worst days" he mumbles and goes to give people their drinks. A large hand land on my waist and my body immediately responds to the personal touch, I turn my head and see Carl, "oh hey" I say and take a sip from my beer, "how long has she been here?" he asks the bartender "since 8" he says and Carl takes in a deep breath, "come on we need to head home" he says and tries to helps me get up from my stool but I shake his hand off and get off the stole by myself. Carl and I get into the car and I sight, closing my eyes and leaning more into my seat "what were you thinking drowning your self in alcohol!" Carl hisses at me as e starts driving and I open my eyes and stare at the trees we are passing by "I only drank two bottles of beer calm down I can handle my drinks" I say hissing at him "why did you even drink huh?" he asks but I don't respond. "for fuck sake Isabelle speak!" he says, anger is all you can hear in his voice, "what am I supposed to say?" I ask my voice coming out as a whisper. Carl drives fast to the side road and hits break, making me gasp at how close I could have hit the window if I did not have my seat belt on. "what the hell Carl!" I scream looking at him, he looks angry like really angry. "what are you supposed to say?! you're supposed to say why the fuck you drowned your self with alcohol Isabella I've told you million times this is not how we handle shit here!" he says his voice rising.

"For fuck sake Carl! people died because of me today!" I say tears trailing down my cheeks now "it wasn't your fault!" he says and I shake my head "just stop okay we both know it is my fault and that stupid envelop, I just want to go far away from here, I want to forget" I tell him shaking my head. "you can't leave Isabella, you will get killed, and you know for sure Danielle will come after you and kill you herself, you know the rules you can't leave, if you leave you to die" he says, I look away from him "take me home" I say not looking at him, I hear him sight and he starts the car again and start making his way to the house. After ten minutes Carl parks the car outside the house and I immediately get out of the car and make my way to my room. I close my room door and my tears start to come down, I quickly walk to the bathroom and strip out of my clothe and go into the shower.

After showering for an hour, I walk out with a towel around my body, I quickly change into a long sweatshirt. As I am brushing my hair I hear a knock on the door, I walk to the door and open it seeing Carl with two cups of tea with him "I brought you a cup of tea" he says and I open the door wider for him to walk in "thanks" I say taking it from him and sitting down on my bed, he walks and sits besides me "Isabella you need to understand it is not your fault" he says and I shake my head "if I have given him the envelope nobody would have died" I say and Carl shakes his head, I put down my cup on top of the nightstand and walk to my backpack. I pull out the envelope and sit beside Carl "is this it?" he asks and I nod my head, I open it and take out the money and the papers "what are those?" he asks pointing to the papers and I shrug, I open one and start reading them and frown "these are James bank accounts and how much he has been making and how much drug he sells" I say and open a different one with bunch of number and locations on it. I look at Carl and he shakes his head "lets put them away, we will look at them a different day" he says and puts them back into the envelope.

"God I am so stupid," I say "no you are not," Carl says and sits in front of me. "I am scared Carl," I say, my voice sounded so weak I hated it. Carl gets up and put his large hand on my cheek, making me close my eyes and lean more into his touch "there is no need to be scared Bella" he says and leans in connecting our lips. The kiss is so passionate. His hands go down from my shoulder down to my arm then waist, he pushes me closer to him. He slowly starts kissing me going down to my neck, I hold my moan not wanting the others to wake up "let it out princess, walls are soundproof" he says kissing and sucking on my sweet spot, his hands under my shirt, on my waist.

I don't know what is happening but I know for sure I want him.

I pull his shirt off and kiss him again, "I was scared something would have happened to you since the first day I saw you" he says and kisses me again. He slowly pulls the shirt over my head and his eyes go wide when he sees my black lingerie "damn" he mumbles and kisses my neck softly, I moan his name which he groans in approval. he slowly pulls his pants down and comes on top of me "are you sure?" he asks and I nod my head slowly "never been so sure in my entire life" I say and he kisses me, his hand going on the strap of my bra. His hand slides to my waist down to my black thong, he slowly lowers himself down, now he is in between my legs. He pushes open my legs and my breath hitches, he slowly leans in and starts kissing my legs up to my inner thigh close to my private part. Oh my god I have never felt this before, "Carl" I moan his name and his head snaps up to me "yeah princess?" he says his voice husky, "please" I say my voice comes as a whisper, within seconds my thong is off and I gasp at how he took it off so quickly with just his teeth, his eyes still on me not breaking the eye contact.

"patients mi amour"

he starts kissing me from my stomach up to my lips, I bit his lips and he groans and pushes himself on me not leaving any space between us. My hand slowly goes down to the hem of his underwear and he stops kissing me and smirks at me "you want it off?" he asks and I nod my head, he gets up and my eyes go wide, okay that is really gonna hurt. he slowly comes back on me and kisses me. I am going crazy I have never been so impatient in my entire life, his hand go on my bra and he unclasp is and takes it off and starts to kiss my lips again "are you sure?" he asks again and I nod and I gulp, he teases to which I moan and before I know he's inside me. The room is now filled with my moan and his groans.

"oh my god," I say as he lays beside me, both of us breathing hard "yeah," he says and kisses my forehead "would you promise me something?" I ask Carl and he looks at me and frowns "promise you what?" he asks and I sight "if I ever leave because something bad might happen would you promise me you won't be the one Danielle sends to kill me?" I ask and his eyes go wide, "Isabella" he warns and I shake my head " I just don't want you to be the one" I say and he shakes his head and starts to kiss me slowly, I have known Carl for 5 months now, as scared I am to say it but I fell in love with him. He is different and is what made me love him so much "what are you thinking about?" Carl asks and I sight and put my head on his chest, my finger trailing his chest "you" I say and hear him chuckle "what about me?" he asks and I look at him and shrug "might as well show you" I say and go under the blanket "Isabella" he warns and I giggle and hear him groan.