My Poetry Collection

Big Boned

Hi.
I'm Seth
I'm 5 foot 11
I weigh over 200 pounds
But its not all because I'm fat
Its cause I'm big boned
But I still feel the need to wear a shirt anytime I go swimming because someone is going to silently judge me for my belly size
And its not because of famous actors
Its my past
One man
One year of my life
That was all it needed
For someone to ridicule and torture me and call me names, and say I would never amount to anything and stay at home on my mom's couch at 30 years old and play video games simply because of the fact that I'm fat
Boy did I believe him
I worked hard
Really hard to lose weight
I stopped eating for sometimes whole days
But it wasnt enough for him
He would hit me
Call me wortless
Call me a fatass
Spit in my face
All the time
But because of something I like to call "Grace"
I was able to crawl out of that hole that is my past with that man
But sometimes I trip on my self esteem, and fall right back in