[this chapter might be triggering for some i suggest listening to bloom later by jesse rutherford it'll go well with the plot]
we began approaching the school, ethan held the door open for us.
we all thanked him and proceeded into the finely decorated school.
"alright ladies and gent," jas began. "this is where we part ways, i'm gonna go find a lady friend." jas send us a wink
"i see you girly." cris playfully winked back.
"good luck with that, most of the girls are rude as hell." i chuckled
"oh don't worry bout' that riri, i know how to handle rude females." jas laughed
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"i'll be right back." i told ethan
"be careful baby," he told me, "keep your phone on you, i don't trust anyone here."
"i love how protective you are." i smiled placing a kiss on his cheek.
he sent me a smile before i began making my way to the woman's bathroom.
i saw zachary, and my ex, demetrius, just lounging in the hallway; conversing.
i didn't want trouble so i just minded my business.
"is this the bitch who kneed you?" zachary looked to me as i began pass them."
even though he called me a bitch i decided to shrug it off, because if i tried something it'd be 2 against 1
i saw my ex give a quick nod, i was almost past them before zachary grabbed me by my wrist and quickly turned me around.
"the hell are you doing, let go of me." i said
"or what?" he pushed. he bought his free hand up to the side of my face and rubbed my cheek slowly, pushing me against the wall they were leaning against.
"get the fuck off me!" i yelled.
no one heard.
i tried dialing ethan with my free hand but my ex grabbed my phone from my hand and threw it to the floor.
"don't try anything slick princess." my ex smirked evilly.
"please." i begged. "don't do this."
"i'll be gentle." zachary chuckled pulling me into the library."
demetrius just stood there in amusement chuckling as zachary pulled me away
i tried as my last strand of hope to yell for someone, anyone to help me
"please help me!" i screamed at the top of my lungs
i gave up, no one heard.
demetrius followed us to the empty library, soon locking the door behind us.
"please." i begged tears welling in my eyes.
i know what they were gonna try, but i had lost hope in trying to get help
i began trying to fight them off, but that only made it worse
zachary grabbed me and pinned me onto one of the library tables
"zachary please don't do this." i said, to see if any humanity was left in him, warm tears spilling from my bloodshot eyes
he only smirked evilly and continued
he pulled my dress up and pulled his pants down.
demetrius stood a couple feet away recording the event on his phone.
loud sobs left my mouth as everything sunk in
he was going to rape me.
i lost all feeling in my body as i went numb, becoming a mess
i was crying uncontrollably
he pulled my underwear off and pulled his boxers down.
"please no, stop!" i yelled
he forcefully pushed himself into me, pushing his nails into my wrists
grunts leaving his mouth, sobs leaving mine
it hurt terribly, and i didn't know what to do anymore
i completely froze, no more sobs, no more pain, no more emotion.
i felt part of me die.
he finished himself up, pulling out and releasing onto the table.
"thanks princess." zachary smiled pulling his pants up, whilst i sat there, frozen in fear, sorrow, regret, numbness.
"tell anyone about this and i'll release this footage, zachary's face'll be cropped out so no one will know. plus no one would believe a whore." demetrius chuckled
i felt tears well up in my eyes, but they didn't dare spill.
they both exited the now dead silent library.
i sat up onto the table, pulling my undergarments on and pulling my dress back down.
i wanted to talk to my mom, knowing that's impossible. i silently sobbed on the library ground.
i looked up to the ceiling imagining heavens above, wondering if my mom was looking down on me.
"mom," i said through sobs, "if you're here, why didn't you stop him!?" i sobbed more. "god, why me?" i questioned
i bought my knees to my head and let myself cry, my lower half ached so bad that i felt like something was sawing at me.
i looked down to my wrists seeing his nail prints there
i began to feel as if i had no more tears to cry, as if they'd completely dried out.
i wanted to text ethan, but my phone was nowhere to be found
i heard someone calling my name but i blocked it out
i wanted to be alone
i felt useless,
worthless,
disgusting,
filthy,
alone,
futile,
i felt like i wanted to die
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hey my ugly rAts
sorry if this chapter got dark
it was hard to write this, i'm sorry if anyone experienced this or had a close friend or family member who had to experience this
ly my ugly rAts
mWAH
