after our sentences ethan was escorted to a maximum security prison for first degree murder, he's in there for 7 years. i was sentenced to a year and a half in prison for the holding of a fugitive.
it's been 2 years.
i still visit him, but he isn't the same, no more spark in his eyes, just sad, dull, empty eyes
i've tried making him happier but it's almost like nothing helps.
i think i lost him.
his family doesn't visit, not even his twin brother, they're all too ashamed but it's a fucking shame.
i don't know how much longer i can go on seeing him this unhappy.
i tried reaching out to his family, but they refuse to visit him, and it breaks my heart.
i just wish i had my happy baby back, there's no more smiles, no more laughs, no more shimmer in his eyes, no more joy.
if only i could go back in time and change what happened, or gotten there sooner to stop him, but it's too late
i hope that it'll get better soon, but i honestly don't know what to expect
a few weeks ago he shanked another male in the showers, he's in critical condition, adding another year to his sentence
if he doesn't get his shit together i don't know how long he'll have, and that worries me.
i just wish i had one more minute with the happy ethan, not the angry, dull, killer ethan, although it's kinda hot. it intimidates me
he holds a deep glare in my eyes whenever i look at him, a scary glare.
it feels like i'm looking at a completely different person, not the man i fell in love with.
it's insane to think of how far we got, and this is how it might end, with one of us in prison and the other incomplete without their other half.
but it just might.
i'd never abandon him, but i can't do this for another 6 years.
i'll always be here for him, but how long is forever?
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welcome to end of the book :]
ty if you got this far, i really appreciate all of you who took the time out of your day to read this trash book, but for my ugly rAts who rlly stuck around i fw you so hard
i wanted to say thank you all so fucking much for reading and voting and commenting
especially devilishdolsxx and dickeddolan ilygsfm
and ofc everyone else who stuck around
i truly hope you enjoyed, ive got another book out if you'd like to read it, it's called converses a grayson dolan fanfic, but in no way am i forcing or promoting, if you don't wanna read it i get it
but ty so so so so sooo much, ilyasm
-bella ♥️
