Love emotions, I do feel inside
What do you think? Am I out of my mind?
The emotions that I had forbidden inside
It's flowing out through this guy I met from someone
I don't understand why I had to feel this inside
I wanted to be a man but my mind changing to be want
Putting some powder cream on my face, instead of playing counterstrike
Dressed myself with a blouse and skirt, instead of T-shirt and pants
I can feel the changing in me
Instead of easily annoyed, I gets cry easily
What's happening to me?
Oh! Psychiatrist! I think I had an abnormality
How can I confess to this guy?
He always stuck like a honey in my mind
When I met him in the way
I got stammered with the words I want to say
He made me laugh, he made me cry
I don't know how I can even say to him goodbye
The days not seeing him, don't know how I will survive
Hope the depression won't bugging me tonight
Now I realize the feelings that had my friend before
But isn't like her, being stupid like she's a toy
I want to confess to him, but I don't have the urge to do it
I don't want to feel the akwardness, I don't want to be ended up alone
I'm getting jealous when he is with another girl
But I don't have the rights to shout at him that he's a jerk
So ignoring it, like nothing happened to me that week
It's okay for me, at least I'm seeing him
I can't speak my mouth, I'm losing of words
Now I am in the depths of despair, dodging all those hurts
Starting to move on, even there's no I and him
Can he hear the heartbeat that pumping in my chest?
Okay in front of him, I was smiling
Deeply inside, I'm hurting
Just don't you never feel it or
Pretending that you don't see it yet?
