Stuck in Perfection (Louis Tomlinson) /discontinued/

Chapter 12

"This will be our little secret."

I keep replying those words in my head. I'm trying to figure out exactly what he meant. I already know I have to keep our relationship a secret from my family. But does he want to keep it a secret from everyone else too? If so, why? Is he ashamed to be with me? It's not like his parents are like mine and will kill him for dating a shunned. I just can't wrap my head around it. Why is he acting so weird?!

"This will be our little secret."

When I get home my parents barely noticed. Mum is busy in the kitchen and my dad is watching the telly in the living room. I head upstairs to my room. I fall onto my bed, completely exhausted. I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to do a lot of things. Just like I wanted to do at Liam's house when I overheard what Louis was saying. I stop and think for a moment.

He does only want to be friends. Or friends with benefits. Or even keeping "us" a secret from everyone and anyone who isn't us. I am fine with being just friends. But I will not be his friend with benefits. And if he does want to be together I will not hide it from our group of friends.

What am I doing? I shouldn't be worried about this. I never was before. Before.... Louis. He did this to me. He changed me. I was never like this before him. If I had never went to my spot at that party I would have never met him. I would still being doing the same thing everyday. Saying the same thing. Wearing similar things. It would be a lot less complicated. I would never have.... I would never have agreed to this arrangement with Liam. I wouldn't be close friends with Dani, Lia, Niall, Zayn, Harry or even Liam himself.

I can't think straight. I know my life would be the exact same if I had never met Louis. Completely boring and torturous. I don't know what to think anymore! My brain is too clouded. All my thoughts are running together, making it impossible for me to think.

There's a light knock on my door. I look up and see Amelia's head pop in. "Can I.... Can I come in?" She asks shyly.

I nod. "Of course."

She enters my room and sits on the bed next to me. She looks at me and says, "Look. I know we've had our differences. I haven't exactly been the best little sister... I've been mean and just... Ugh. I'm sorry. And I want us to try again. Maybe we can go back to the way it was when we were little."

I gulp. I've always wanted this. Then something comes to mind. "What about your boyfriend? I'm sorry Amelia but I really don't like him. I don't think he's good enough for you."

"Who? Damen? Oh, well that doesn't matter. I already broke up with him. He cheated on me." She shrugs.

"Oh. Good... I mean good that you broke up with him not that he cheated on you," I say quickly.

Amelia chuckles and shakes her head. "I guess so. He was a real jerk. Always telling what to do, when to do it, and how it should be done. I got sick and tired of being treated that way. And then to top it off he snuck around with that terrible ex of his, so I broke it off with him."

"I'm glad that you finally did. He wasn't good for you. I know you don't want to hear it from me, but I don't care. I'm still going to say it. He was a low life and you could do so much better. I'm not going to control your life and tell you who you can and cannot hang with or date. That's Mum and Dad's job," I tell her. "But I will tell you when I don't think the person you chose is right. Sound good?"

Amelia nods. "Yeah. I guess that's okay. Can we talk about something else now?"

I get a strange feeling about this. It's so weird. Amelia and I never talk, unless she's saying some mean remark. Why is she suddenly being nice to me? Why are we suddenly having heart felt conversations? I know she said it's because she saw Dad slap me and something inside her. I don't know if I believe her though. It just seems off to me.