If I Stay. (Sam Wilkinson fanfic)

Chapter 16

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"I'll drop Marlene off first, is that okay with you?" Jack asks me.
"Yes it's fine, thank you." I say. The whole way to my house Sam sits there, looking down at his hands and fiddles with his fingers. I want to go and hug him and kiss him and tell him everything is fine, but he needs to understand I won't forgive so quickly, and that I have the ability to be as stern as he does.

Jack pulls into my drive way, and I thank him and get down the car, before Sam stops me.

"No goodbye kiss? Or can I come with?" he says. "I think it's better for you to just go home for now. Goodbye Sam." I say, and walk up to my door. The door is locked, and I forgot my keys, so I just walk to the backyard, and in through my window.

I but my bag down on my dresser, and see that it's already 1 A.M. I go to the bathroom, and strip off my clothes, and take a quick shower.

After I finish I get out, and put on one of Sams t shirts he left here for me, and pj shorts. I look down at my thighs, and there are still some visible scars. Yes, I used to self harm. I was a junior and I had no one, so the only way to cope with everything was to cut. It lasted until graduation.

I lay on my bed, and stare at the ceiling, taking in everything that happened today. Sam and I are falling apart. We are a bit more distant now. We've been arguing more than we should. I let tears slip out as I think of this.

It breaks my heart to just think that Sam and I could no longer be a thing if we continue like this. He got me feeling some type of way. He gets me mad, sad, happy, and everything you can think of. I hate him so much that I love him. I hug my little pillow he always says that it's his favorite because of the unicorn on it, and I lay there and cry.

I've been strong for too long. I've been holding these tears for too long, and I don't know for what. It's just everything that has happened back home, and here that has me like this.

I here something from my window but I don't bother to see what it is. Soon I feel the bed dip down, and a pair of big strong arms wrap around my waist, holding me close.

"I don't want to see you crying. I don't know what I did for you to be like this, but whatever it is, I'm sorry baby girl. I love you, okay?" he whispers in my ear, and pulls the cover over me, before kissing me, and falling asleep.

***** NEXT MORNING *****

"Baby wake up. Babe, it's already nine in the morning." Sam says, shaking me.

I groan and throw a pillow at him. "It's too early!" I slur. I cuddle deeper in the covers, and close my eyes. I feel myself getting flipped into my back, and a pair of big lips pressed against mine. I instantly kiss back, and snake my arms around his neck. "now... you're... awake." Sam says through kisses. "Yes, I am." I say, smiling.

He pecks my lips one last time before getting off of me, and I go to shower. I enter the bathroom, and strip off my clothes before getting in the tub. I make sure my hair is well washed, and my body smells like 100% strawberries, and jump out.

I wrap the towel around my body and go to my room. I walk to my closet, and put on my panties and bra. Sam texted me saying he went home to shower as well.

I decide on wearing a white t-shirt with Mickey Mouse's face all over it, and a black leather skater skirt, and knee high socks with black wedges. I put on a gold chain necklace, and a few rings, before going to the bathroom and fixing up my hair.

I let it in its natural waves, but add some leave in conditioner, and a little but of oil. I put on my ear rings, and fix my make up. I put on foundation, and winged eyeliner before putting on mascara, and my red lipstick.

I put my makeup bag away, and go downstairs to grab something to eat. "Oh honey! we got you right on time." my mother says, smiling.

"Hey. what's up." I say. "Well, your father and I have to tell you something." She says. "What is it?" I say, slowly.

"Well, you see, we work in CANON, you know that, and we are getting sent to Montana to see the new update on the latest camera, to see how it's turning out." She says.

"Wow. That's great, well how long?" I ask. "2 months." She says. I spit a but of my orange juice out when she says it. "2 MONTHS! Really mother! And you're just going to leave me here? alone?!" I shout.

"You're not going to be alone, Tessa is here, and you have friends right? look, don't worry about it! you're already old enough to live on your own anyway, you're 18! it won't be so bad. We leave in an hour so come here, and say goodbye." she says.

"An hour?! and you JUST decide on telling me this NOW! You people are ridiculous! have fun over there, and don't bother on calling to check up on me because I know you guys don't really even care." I shout, and run out of the house.

I run, well speed walk to Sam's house, as I here my father calling out for me, but doesn't bother stepping off of the porch.

"FUCKING ASSHOLES!" I shout out as I enter Sam's house. By now I am crying, but I try to hold it back. "Who's there!" Sam shouts from upstairs.

"It's just me." I say, walking up to his room. There are so many doors, but soon see Sam standing from the farthest one back. I run to him, as he has a worried face, seeing me crying.

"What happened?" he asks, wrapping his arms around me. "My parents are leaving to Montana for there stupid work for two months and they tell me now that they are about to leave. They don't even care anymore. They think that since I'm already 18 they don't have to care for me anymore but little do they know I can't live without them. They're more distant now, and I never see them anymore. I hate this." I say crying into his shoulder.

"It'll be alright, Marlene. I got you. I'll take care of you, and make sure you feel loved and safe with me. you have me Jack, and Jessica what more can you ask for? you don't need a lot of people in your life to be there for you. Just one person in already enough. I love you, okay? and so does your parents, but they're just a bit washed up in there work that they probably don't have time to give you so much attention but if what they do is keeping you from dying and homeless, just know they do love you deep down."

We stand there hugging for a while, letting me cry everything I can, but then soon separate by the sound of my phone ringing. I see the caller I.D and it says Valeria.

"Hello?"

"Hey baby! miss you! whatcha been up to!"

"Nothing much, look Valeria now is not a good time, okay? I'll call you a little later when everything has passed so I can tell you. I'm fine don't worry babe."

"Oh alright, keep your chin up high princess. Bye" she says, and hangs up.

I didn't notice that Sam was shirtless until I actually get a good look at him. "Damn baby, you keep up the work out cause it's paying off real good." I say, biting my lip. he just laughs, but smirks after, and looking at me up and down.

"And you with that fine ass. keep them squats up girl, it'll keep your ass up and big." He says giving me a seductive look. I blush and turn facing his mirror, and taking out my makeup to fix up what I messed up because of crying.

"You know I really don't understand why you put on make up. Your face is flawless, and I love it eve more when I see your freckles." he says.

Self confidence, I guess? I don't do it to impress anyone, I do it for my own self." I say.

I finish fixing my make up, as Sam finishes getting ready. "What are we doing today?" I ask. "I was thinking of just walking around?"

"Sounds wonderful." I say in a weird accent I didn't even know I could do. He laughs, and we go downstairs to his car, and drive off to wherever he is taking me.

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