Mental (Felix Lee/StrayKids FF) ✓

Chapter 7

They stared at me with blank faces, as I was talking the others looked at me. Everyone heard what I said, the room was quiet. I could hear my heartbeat quicken as no one responded, did they hate me? I didn't know, where they disgusted? That I didn't know either. "You're not crazy Raeyln" he spoke, Felix spoke in my ear sending joyful shivers down my spine. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me to sit in-between his legs as he rested his head on my shoulder. The others were smiling at me, but a smile that I picked up on was full with, sorrow? I couldn't explain it but it looked like it. I felt his heavy breathing realising that I had zoned out for a little too long before he spoke again, "you're never crazy when you're with us, we find you unique like we are ourselves. We're stray kids and if you want, you're a Stray kid also." He said his smile never leaving his soft kind face, I was a stray kid? I was one of them. I looked at the others who smiled reassuringly while Chan nodded at me, so they didn't think I was crazy? I nodded my head back at him, spinning to face Felix with a huge smile on my face.

I don't know if it was a mistake or not but as I turned he also turned to me, our lips locked. I felt his soft lips on mine for a mere second before I pulled back in shock, both our eyes were wide. What did I do? I jumped up from the bed and ran out of the room to my own, I think I messed everything up, why am I so stupid? I shut the door to my room and planted myself on my bed, covering my eyes with my hands I let out a loud sigh and fell back on the bed. It's not that I didn't like it, I did infact I did alot. I like Felix, I think? I must, I know I do. I locked my door before I came in which I was thankful for I could hear him outside my door he was calling for me, saying my name over and over again, begging me to open the door but I was to scared.

"Raeyln open up, please" he begged I could hear his voice going shaky at the end of his sentence, he wasn't upset from what I could tell he seemed worried but what would I say if I opened the door, hey Felix I actually like you? No that seems like a dumb idea, it also seemed like a dumb idea to just sit there and stare at the door.

Do you feel like it was a mistake? How did she know I needed her? How does she always know? "No I don't feel like it was but he might" I said my voice filled with worry, I could blame it on the hormones but that wasn't the case here I was actually scared, he could hate me and I didn't want that. "He might be mad, he could even hate me but I don't know" I said as a tear slid down my cheek, why was I crying? Honestly I don't know. Do you really think he's angry at you? He didn't sound like he hated you and even if he did why would he be waiting outside the door, he's waiting for you. I think he needs you as much as you need him my dear. She said then she was gone, did he really need me?

"Raeyln please just open the door, don't be mad at me I couldn't take it if you're mad at me" I heard him through the door almost like a whisper, he sounded broken. I couldn't take it, I walked to the door and opened it. There he was again but he looked different this time he was frowning, his cheeks stained with tears and his eyes red and watery. Why was he crying? He looked up as he noticed I opened the door and pulled me into a hug, it was tight but comfortable. "Thank goodness, I thought you were mad at me" he said his voice shaky and barely audible as he spoke lowly so his voice wouldn't crack from the pressure in his throat as he forced the tears to stop running.

"Why would I be mad at you? I thought you'd be mad at me" I said uncertain, I was usually uncertain but why was this such a shocker to me.
"I could never be mad at you, I've wanted to do it since I met you but I was to scared plus I like you" he did it, he confessed to me. My smile was huge on my face, an ugly but happy smile.

"I like you to" I was sure of it now and as I locked eyes with his again I could see the sparkle return to them that was momentarily lost.