It wasn't you

Note 1

Jimins, it wasn't you

"what?"

My heart was beating faster due to this. What does she mean? It had to be me right? I wasn't there when should have been. I did this. But why did she say it wasn't me when we both know it probably was?

I looked at her. Her face still mesmerized me. How can one, after... After doing those things to herself, those terrible things, still be this beautiful?

I suddenly had this urge to cry.

So I did.

I stayed crying by her bedside for ten minutes, looking up at her and and the window and praying, that she will be okay.

"we can fight this Y/n. We can fight this."

I didn't know if k was telling the truth or not. I was barely holding on to my own life as of now. Seeing her like this made me feel as if I failed her as a lover. I probably had.

But I decided to stay in this cruel world. Not only for her, but for the people I love too. I see what this does to people, i see the pain that it can cause and I'm not capable of making people feel this pain. I don't want others to hurt the way I'm hurting. Because if everyone felt this way, there would be no one left happy.

*Inhale*
*exhale*

I repeated that seven times trying to regain composure. Finally I was stable, for the moment anyways.

I picked up the slightly crinkled paper once more and decided not to look at her this time, but to just hold her hand.

Just get it over with Jimin. Find out why.

Jimin, it wasn't you.

I promise it wasn't you. You didn't cause any of this. It was me and some other people, but it wasn't you. You were just that extra variable of the equation that shouldn't be there, when they have nothing to do with the problem. You weren't the reason, you were the one that was keeping me alive. I promise it wasn't you.

-Y/n

"just the extra variable... of the equation that.... shouldn't be there, when... they have nothing.... to to with the problem?"

But I was there. I could have helped solved the problem Y/n. If you just told me.

No.
If I just saw it. How could I not see it?You were fine, well you looked perfectly fine anyways.

Wait.

Flashback

"Y/n, im so sorry, but this concert was really unexpected, I swear. I tried to get out of it, but the others already excepted it. "

Her head was down and she barely spoke.

"it's okay Jimin. "

I put my hand under her chin and gently lifted her head up. She kept her eyes down though, still not wanting to face me.

I felt bad, but if look at the bright side, it's only three months and it will increase our fan base.

But she didn't care. I could tell. She just wanted to spend time with me. And she was probably scared too.

We have been dating for almost a year now, the fans, ARMY, found out about her a couple of weeks ago. Some of them have been so supportive and welcoming about the relationship.

While other were being the opposite.
She did receive death threats and how she was destroying my career. She felt horrible, but I told her they were just jealous because they were. I told her they would never do that and that I would talk to them. I thought she believed me. I though she was going to be okay

End of Flashback

I thought she was going to be okay.

To be continued...