Don't get mad at me for this, but the day after you left for your tour, I started feeling sick. I was very nauseous in the mornings after you left. I thought maybe it was the flu or a cold, but then I started to get sick. I would run in the mornings to the bathroom and get sick. I thought maybe this was something worse, so I went to the doctor's. I know what you might be thinking, why didn't she call me? I know how busy being on tour can be for you, so I just decided I would tell you when you called me. Which is what I was going to do, until I found out why I was nauseous.
It was both of our faults, but mostly mine.
"what is she talking about?"
I know how we discussed taking the pill after our first time and I did, every morning. Every morning, except one morning. I think I might have been so tired that I forgot. It was my fault. I should have remembered, but anyways.
I was pregnant. With our child.
"Was? I was going to be a dad? "
I was honestly a mixture of emotions. I was scared, excited, happy, worried. I was so worried you wouldn't want it and that you would say we are to young. That I would have to get rid of it or that you would leave me. Something I didn't want to do, but then I saw a video of you with your niece. How amazed and happy you were with her. I though you would make a great father.
She thought I wouldn't want it, that I would leave her. I would never leaver you Y/n. Never
If only you thought the same.
And you will make a great father, a great husband, I just don't think with me. I was going to tell you when you got back, but something else happened.
I started having really bad cramps, really bad sharp pains in my stomach. I felt terrible. I thought I was dying or that k was losing the baby. I called the ambulance and they rushed me to the hospital, but there was nothing they could do when I got there. It was to late they said.
I was two month pregnant. I was happy for two months. I was so excited for our future, what an amazing dad you would be, what and amazing husband you would be, how excited everyone would be.
Then they told me it was too late.
I lost our baby.
That was the worst thing I have ever heard in my entire life.
I'm sorry I never got to tell you. I'm sorry we weren't going to be a family. I'm sorry I ruined everything.
I'm so, so, so sorry.
I will forever be sorry for that.
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FanfictionA short story on why a girl tried to take her own life, struggling to stay alive, leaving the one who loved her most confused and alone. "I finally stared at the paper and read her delicate hand writing. The first words causing me to not take a b...
