Little Did She Know (Niall Horan)

Forever & Always

Mia's P.O.V

 

I sat there staring down at my feet, the cold winter air chilling my body. I looked up at the casket in front of me.

The lads and I, including Katelyn's family were standing under a bright blue tent. Why they got bright blue I had no idea, because this was not a cheerful bright moment. I looked over to Niall who had endless tears streaming down his pale face. He hadn't talked in a week, none of us did. Just the casual greeting of one another.

"Mia would you like to say a few words?" The preacher asked. I nodded coming forward to stand behind her lifeless body. I felt goosebumps rising to my skin of the thought of her waking up and wrapping us all in a huge hug. Her kissing Niall and playing around with the boys.

My hands shook as I pulled a tiny piece of paper from my pocket. Wishing this moment had come many years later after we were old and gray. Not today. Not this soon.

I took a deep breath and breathed out for the thousandth time today, as I spoke coldly to the crowd of people surrounding me.

Niall's P.O.V

 

I wiped the old tears away as I welcomed the fresh feeling of new tears stinging fall down my cheeks. I was almost used to this feeling. I had been crying non stop tears for a week.

I knew I seemed strong on the outside, but nothing could compare to the hurt and emptiness I was feeling deep inside my chest.

The preacher broke the quietness surrounding me. "Mia would you like to say a few words?" I silently cursed him for ruining this lonely empty silence. I didn't enjoy it, but it was better than someone talking when I couldn't talk or move at all.

I watched Mia make her way to behind the open box thing in front of us. Seeing Katelyn's pale skin, and the bruised marks and cuts sickened me, yet she was still beautiful to me and nothing could take that beauty away.

"Hello." Mia spoke barely above a whisper. "I hate to be standing here today, in front of my lifeless best friend. I would have never thought this moment would have came, not this fast at least. I remember how Katelyn and I first met, over the internet. It was an amazing journey. I still blame myself for this happening. I'm not quite sure why. I know she wouldn't want me to do this to myself, but I can't help it." Mia sniffled, her eyes becoming glossed over with new tears.

I lowered my head once more causing more of my tears to fall onto the ground underneath my feet.

I felt Katelyn's mom lay a hand on my shoulder. I wanted to push her away, but I had no effort to do so. No energy in me to even fight back.

Mia was now fully sobbing over Katelyn, as Harry had to pull her away and welcomed her into his open arms.

"Niall?" The man asked me gesturing over to where he was.

I walked in front of Katelyn, not bothering to turn around and face everyone's solid stares.

I could feel many pairs of eyes burning into the back of my head, but I just focused on her.

This was our last moment.

I reached out, touching her icy cold face. Somehow I felt warm underneath the cold. "I'm so sorry for everything I ever did to cause you pain, everything I ever did to upset you or hurt you. Just as I was getting you back into my life, I lost you, and this time I can't get you back." I breathed in heavily feeling a burning deep in my stomach. "I love you more than words can explain, you are my everything Katelyn Thatcher. I will never forget you," I whispered to her, gently planting a warm feathered kiss onto her cool forehead.

I leaned over her body praying silently to myself that God himself would bring her back. I felt more tears pour down my face as the cool wind nipped at them, sending chills down my spine.

I heard loud and silent cries coming from all around me. I hadn't realized my friends had surrounded around me.

Liam pulled me to him gripping his strong hold around me. I didn't care how pathetic I sounded right now. I let my emotions surround me, as I let everything I had tried holding in for a week out.

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It's been over three hours that they have buried her in that cold horrid ground, six feet under. I stood just staring at her tomb. Her beautiful name perfectly engraved on the large grey stone.

I was now out of tears to cry. I had tried, but all that came out was dry cries.

I felt a hand touch my shoulder as I turned to see Mia and every single one of the boys standing behind her.

"How are you?" Mia asked her voice weak and filled with sadness.

I shook my head, and covered my face with my hands. "I can't do this." I said breathing heavily into my cupped hands.

"You didn't derserve this," Zayn spoke up holding Perrie closely to his chest. Perrie's makeup was smeared all the way down her face, as well as Mia and Eleanor's.

I nodded. "I don't know how I'm going to make it," My voice cracking horribly.

"Listen it's going to be hard, for every single one of us, but as long as we have each other and Katelyn's memory we can make it," Louis spoke up causing my body to jump from the unusual serious tone of his voice.

"We should get going now Niall, come on," Harry whispered to me. I nodded.

I know she would want me to be happy again one day. I couldn't even think of that being possible right now. I closed my eyes and opened them again as the wind picked up around me.

"I love you," I whispered quietly turning on my heel following my friends out of the cemetery.

My beautiful angel was really gone. I would never forget her. I would carry her with me through whatever and wherever life took me. She would always be in my heart forever and always.