"My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion"
- 'Mansion'
You'd call my name but I would never hear you
Why? 'Cause I was too caught up in my own little world to
You'd stand right in front of me and try and try to get through
Worried you were losing me to the world I'd made without you
Lost inside my head, the Outside never seemed to matter
I'd sit in my room and just imagine things for hours
Talking to the voices in my head that called me deeper
Never thought to leave a trail to help me in my return
The universe inside my head seemed more fun than the Outside
I could do whatever I wanted within the space of my mind
I didn't know how frightened you were, but looking back now I'm
Scared I might have all but disappeared into the Inside
You tried all you could do to bring me back to where I should be
Diets, conversations, pills that helped balance deficiencies
It took a while but my world was changed eventually
And now that I'm not lost inside, I'm glad that you are happy
How might I be now if I was still Inside, I have to ask
Honestly I think I left pieces of me in dreams that I had
Would I go back? Not in a million - you can be sure of that
I'd rather have a life Outside than whatever it was that I had
But sometimes my universe seeps through the cracks in the walls of my mind
I'll stare off into space, let the voices say I will be fine
I'll fight to fix the walls again and return to the Outside
It's haunting to know this universe I made will never fully die
