On our way to the cabin we didn't say anything, but I saw Lo glaring at Lex through the rearview mirror and rolled my eyes. I didn't knew they were best friends, and have slept with both of them made me feel like a slut, and it was frustratingly painful. I only slept with Lo just one night, and yes it felt wrong because I love him like a cousin, and I wish I could go back in time and tell my brain 'no this is your cousin' and leave his room.
Here I am, with the past taunting me, two best friends who want to kill each other, even when Lex won't admitt it. My daughter's still missing and I think I'm going crazy. This is making me want to kill someone, and I don't care who. I just want to find my daughter and get the hell out of Italy.
Before we got to the cabin Lex passed out, I think he's still in pain and I don't care, I came here for a reason, I'm not here because I feel bad for him. But seeing his pained eyes, he looks so vulnerable, like little Lex 20 years ago, and that makes me want to hug him, kiss him, tell him everything's going to be okay. Okay, maybe I care a little bit. A very little.
"Lex?" I heard Angelica call him. "Lex?"
"Leave him" I tell her.
"You sure?" She asked me.
"Yeah, are you going to carry him inside?" She shake her head and got out.
"Are you okay?" Lo asked.
"Yeah, why you ask?"
"You've been watching him ever since he passed out"
"Oh yeah, I shouldn't have rushed him to come with me"
"Hey, I know he's important even if you'll never admitt it, but he's going to be in Bella's life he's going to risk his life sometimes even if it kills him"
"I know, it's just that he looks so vulnerable that makes me worry"
Well, that's some sweet stuff" I heard Lex voice from behind.
"Great, you're awake. Now get your Italian butt inside and bath, you smell like hospital"
"I was in a hospital princess. Did you forget?" He winked at me, got out and left.
"His smiling face makes me want to punch him really hard and kill him myself" Lo got out the car too and left.
I never saw this coming, and I regret asking Lo for help. And if they want to rip each other's heads, I won't stand up to either. Because I love the both of them, one as a cousin and the other as a lover. Even if I don't want to love Lex. I'll admitt it again.
Couple of hours later, it was time to go to bed but I couldn't, because the thought of imagining my daughter being forced to sleep in a cell, eat dog food as I call it, and... being abused, brings back memories I thought were buried. And the nightmares returned. I screamed the whole night when I was slowly falling asleep, Angelica always were there to witness my post-nightmare section. Lo at first didn't understand how basly they were but aftee the 2nd one, he came to me but didn't dare to touch me. Well, I told him not to touch me, and he didn't. Until the 7th nightmare 'attacked' me, and he just hugged me and didn't let go even if I was screaming louder and throwing punches at him.
The nightmares were si fast to get to me that I had 15 that night. Of course I haven't slept but hey, I don't feel tired at all. Is it because I resist or because my daughter's still missing and I'm desperate? Who knows, but I feel it's the latter.
"Well are we ready to leave?" Lex asked.
"Why are you rushing?" Lo said.
"Because it's my daughter and because I want to kill something. Are you volunteering?" They glared at each other.
"Okay now, yeah we're leaving, let me grab my bag"
"Why you need a bag for?" Angelica asked.
"Because it's normal for me to always carry a bag, and because I haven't sleep or eaten anything so, I need protein"
"Wonderful, let's go" Lex said. His parent commanding voice it's irritating.
If he would've been like this, I mean not brute, good, 5 years ago, I would've told him Bella was his the very minute I found out about it. But he did all those things to me and I knew that me and my little girl had to stay away from him, forever. And here we are, working together to get our daughter. I got to say, this side of him it's sad but refreshing.
And so we left.
