never know | fillie

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soft
finn's pov

the next day went how i expected it go, millie ignoring me the entire day. she didn't make eye contact with me, she didn't speak to me and she avoided me at all costs. i mean, i didn't blame her. i have treated her like shit. i wish, i wish my mum never cheated on my dad. if she didn't i would never have the constant voice repeating the same three sentences in my head over and over.

you will end up like your dad.

you will become a mess, just like him.

don't fall for her, don't fall for her.

that's the worrying thing, i think i am falling for millie bobby brown. and i can't stop myself.

millie's pov
i am ignoring finn, purely based on the fact that he is a complete asshole that just hurts me over and over and over again. he isn't worth it.
i have tried to avoid him as much as i can, and it has worked. until today.

i am getting books from my locker until i feel a hand tap my shoulder. of course it's him. the one person who i don't want to speak to. finn.

i look at him and then look away, ignoring him completely.

"millie we need to talk" he demands.

"no finn, we really don't" i argue back.

all of a sudden, he grabs my wrist and pulls me into the janitors closet that was next to my locker. i gasp at his sudden actions.

as the door shuts in the closet it turns to complete darkness, only the small line of light coming from the corridor. i can hear him breathing heavily, but he doesn't say anything.

"millie, do you like me?" he asks softly. i freeze at his question. because i know that i do like him, but i also despise him.

"why would you think that finn?" i ask, avoiding the question.

"i don't know i mean you have shown signs of it" he says quietly. he sounds nervous.

"the truth is, i do like you finn, but it is fucking shit because you don't even like me back and it turns out you are a complete ass" i say quickly.

"millie- i like you too" he whispers softly. i then feel him, i feel him starting to lean forward. i felt his warm breath hit my face. i leaned forward to, our faces were only inches apart.

and then obviously, somebody knocked on the door, interrupting the moment. we both jump at the sudden noise, i then open the door to see maddie ziegler. great.

"well, what is this?" she says with a smirk on her face.

"nothing, we were just getting something from the closet" i mumble nervously.

"really? because it didn't look like that" maddie says with her smirk widening.

"maddie just fuck off" finn growls from the back.

"oh finn! it looks like you have moved on from me already, doesn't it?" maddie sniggers.

that's when i remember, finn had sex with maddie.

"you move on pretty quickly don't you finn, you are just another fuck boy" she sneers. before strutting off down the corridor.

"millie, you aren't just a girl i want to have sex with or something stupid like that, you are special" he says.

"finn, i wouldn't be suprised if you said that to all the other girls" i mutter.

"please believe me" he says softly.

"it's kind of hard to believe you right now" i say before walking away from him.

after school
i get home from school and text sadie as per usual, until i get a text of someone who i least expected one off.

finn; millie can i come over in ten minutes?
millie; why?
finn; i really need to speak to you.
millie; fine

i put my phone down slowly, i felt nerves building up inside of me. what could he possibly want to talk about?

exactly 10 minutes later he arrives. he looked upset when i open the door to him. we walk up to my room and sit on my bed. he stays silent for a few minutes before finally saying something.

"millie, i like you, a lot" he says softly as he looks into my eyes. my heart flutters.

"finn-you say this to all the girls" i say while shaking my head.

"did you ever wonder why i treated you like shit? why i avoided you, never spoke to you and was always horrible to you? it's because i liked you so much, and that scared me" he says.

my eyes widen at his words but i can't say anything.

"i didn't want to end up like my dad, that's why i forced myself to be a dick to you, because i knew i genuinely liked you" he says. his gaze drifts from my eyes to my lips, and back up to my eyes. he licks his lips before looking down at his hands. that's when i cup his face with my hands.

"i like you to finn, i really do" i say softly. he looks at my with a smile on his face and then he leans in slowly, i lean in too. that's when our lips finally touch. his lips press against mine softly and he kisses my slowly. he moves his hand down to my waist and i move my hands to his curls and tug them lightly. i feel him smile into the kiss as i do that. we pull away slowly. we both laugh and i rest my head on his shoulder.