never know | fillie

05

the project
millie's pov

the night after the party

millie; first of all, this is millie, second of all, caleb gave me your number. i know you still hate me despite what happened last night and you probably don't want to talk but we need to do our biology project.

10 mins later

finn; fine, who's house and when.
millie; my house, in an hour?
finn; ok

i felt nervous. i knew things would  be awkward after yesterday but i had to try and forget about it. i get ready and head downstairs to make myself a drink. i hear the door ring as i pick out some fruit for my smoothie. i run to the door and open it to see finn. he has a black hoodie on and his hair is messy with a backwards cap on. i open the door for him and he walks past me.

"uh i am making myself a smoothie, do you want anything?" i ask.
"no thanks" he says while checking his phone.

we head upstairs once i have made my smoothie. he sits on my bed and pulls out the work he has done so far. we finish the project which takes a while. we hardly talk and then it is 8pm when i look at my watch.

"i should go" he says, standing up and heading towards the door. i grab his wrist and turn him around. he looks straight into my eyes, which sent shivers down my spine.

"f- finn" i stutter.
"what millie" he says, he looks frustrated.
i slowly lean forward, i don't know why, i just did, it was almost as if there was a magnet pulling me towards him. he looks confused and then his phone rings. his looks down and then looks back at me.

"i have to go" he says as he leaves the room. i felt hurt as he left. i don't know why i bother to make an effort to even talk to him. he is a piece of shit and i need to get that in my head.

finn's pov
as i drive home i can't help but think about millie, she was about to kiss me. i don't think i would have kissed her back, the phone call saved me. i hope she doesn't like me, because i don't like her back.

the truth is, i don't like anyone. i like people as friends and i will have sex with girls or make out with them but that's it. no romantic shit. i guess people label me as a 'fuck boy' but i have my reasons. i have never had feelings towards a girl and i plan to keep it that way. the reason why is that i don't want to end up like my dad. my mum and dad fell in love when they were young. they were practically inseparable, they dated for years before he finally proposed. they were in a happy marriage and that's when mum mum had me. three years later, my mum cheated on my dad with his best friend. this ruined him. he became an alcoholic, became depressed and lost his job. he couldn't look after me so i got taken in by his friend and his wife, david harbour and winona ryder. they were the most amazing parents to me and i consider them to be like my real ones. and that's the reason i refuse to like anyone, that's the reason i am going to avoid millie.

the next day
millie's pov
i am still feeling confused and hurt from yesterday, but at least i know that finn doesn't give a shit about me and i should just leave it. i head to my locker to pick up my textbooks for the day when i feel a poke on my shoulder. i turn around to face maddie, kenzie and grace giving me cold glares. great, i think to myself as maddie stepts forward.

"millie, isn't it?" she says with a fake smile plastered across her face.
"uh- yeah?" i reply, confused to why she was even talking to me.
"i'm not going to beat around the bush, so i will cut straight to point" she says as her eyebrows furrow together. "a friend of mine saw you and finn leave together at the party, so i thought i would make it clear that you should stay the fuck away from him. i like finn and he knows that, we have had sex, you probably haven't even touched him, so stay away from him, or i will make your life a living hell" she says. before i can say anything she shoves past me and struts down the corridor with grace and kenzie closely followed behind. i felt sick to my stomach. i don't even like finn yet i get all these threats? her sister is the one making out with him behind her back. i shake my head and make my way to the cafeteria.

as i walk in i see a very excited sadie jumping up and down at the table.
"what's going on?" i say to her.
"noah's parents own a lake house two hours away and we are all going to stay there next week! you are coming!" sadie squeals.
"i don't know-" i say.
"yes, you are coming!" lilia says pulling me into a hug. i roll my eyes but i also smile.
"fine" i say.
everyone cheers, except from finn who looks at his phone blankly.

later that day 7pm

new groupchat - the nerdz

sadie added lilia, iris, caleb, millie, noah, gaten and finn to the chat.

sadie; hey guys!
noah; heyyy
iris; hi!
gaten; i am so excited for next week
millie; same ahhh
caleb; where is finn?
gaten; probably sleeping
sadie; who's car are we taking?
lilia; my dads, it is an 8 seater.
millie; perfect!

i put my phone down and go to sleep, thinking about the amazing memories i am about to experience with the people i love most.