Suffer Well (Sterek)

Push

The sight of Stiles' jeep in the driveway made Derek slightly nervous. He had kind of been hoping he'd be gone before he and Cora got back. Perhaps this meant things had gone well between the pair though.

"What's Stiles doing here?" Cora frowned.

Derek didn't respond as he stepped out of the car.

Before Derek could close the car door, Stiles came stalking out of the house with Dominic on his heels.

"Stiles, maybe you should calm down a bit before-"

"Derek Hale, you are unbelievable," Stiles snapped ignoring Dominic. He shoved Derek back a bit so he was leaning against the side of his car.

"How could you do something like this? After everything I've done for you. I've been nothing but honest with you and this is what I get? Set up with your brother? Do you even know how hard it was to explain that I didn't have feelings for him? That it was you I had feelings for? Do you even know the position you put him in? How could you do this? You think setting me up with Dominic would change my mind about him? You think setting up a fake date will give you an out for dating me? Yeah, Dominic told me your little golden rule about not sharing between brothers. You thought If I dated Dominic, you wouldn't ever be able to. Well that is a cheap shot. You kept talking about how you didn't want to hurt me, what the hell did you expect this to do?" Stiles was full on yelling, his finger jabbing Derek in the chest.

"I thought your feelings for Dominic would surface again, and you'd forget about me," Derek frowned. This is not the reaction he'd expected.

"It doesn't work like that, Derek."

"How was I supposed to know," Derek shrugged.

"You lied to us. You manipulated us. You knew I wouldn't agree to this," Stiles smelled heavily of anger and betrayal.

"I figured I'd give you a little push," Derek glanced at his brother who was standing behind Stiles. He looked upset as well.

"Well congratulations, Derek, you did push me, you pushed me away. I was willing to just be your friend, I told you I would ignore my feelings for you, but that wasn't enough was it, you had to lie to me and your brother and manipulate us. I figured you of all people would know how much that hurts," Stiles snapped before backing away from the werewolf.

"Stiles, I'm sorry, I-"

"Don't," Stiles pulled away from Derek's outstretched hand. He turned to Dominic, "Thank you for having dinner with me."

Derek watched Stiles stalk off to his jeep.

"Stiles, wait," Dominic hurried after the human, "Please, don't do this. I know he messed up, but we'll miss you."

Stiles bit down on his lower lip, "I'll miss you guys too, but I'm sorry," Stiles climbed into his jeep then.

Derek having heard the conversation felt panic course through him, Stiles wasn't going to come around anymore. He'd pushed Stiles away completely. No, he couldn't lose him, not like this. He was supposed to date his brother and be at the house all the time.

"Stiles," Derek yelled, but it was too late, he was already pulling away.

Dominic turned his attention to his younger brother.

"What the hell is wrong with you? You two literally admitted to having feelings for each other and you do something like that? Why couldn't you just date him?" Dominic was pissed and confused.

Derek didn't respond. He didn't know how. He had wanted to keep from hurting Stiles, he thought reminding Stiles of his feelings for Dominic would keep him from hurting him by not being with him.

-

When Stiles was sure he was far enough away from the Hale house, he let the tears he'd been holding back fall. He was hurt and pissed. He never imagined Derek would hurt him like this. All he wanted was to be there for Derek, he'd agreed to pretend his feelings for the werewolf didn't exist, but that hadn't been enough for him. He knew Derek had issued with relationships, but he went out of his way to make sure they could never be together by setting him up with his brother. That hurt.

Pulling into his driveway he decided he didn't want to be alone. He called Scott. Maybe him or Isaac could come over.

-

Derek laid on his bed with a pain in his chest he had felt only once before. When he'd been forced to take paige's life, the girl he'd been in love with so many years ago. She'd been bit by a local alpha and it didn't take. She'd begged him to put her out of his misery. He'd felt this hallow feeling for months after, like something had been ripped from him. Now here he was several years later with a similar feeling. Perhaps he wasn't meant to be happy. He'd failed at protecting Paige, he'd gotten his family killed, and now he'd hurt the one person he swore not to.

Stiles was right, he'd been there for him and never once lied to him. He'd been understanding and caring. Supportive and even risked his life to help him. And Derek made one stupid mistake and threw all that away. He stared at his phone, wishing it would signal a text from Stiles, but it had been almost an hour and nothing. No text to let him know he got home safely. He'd worried that maybe he hadn't gotten home safely, but he knew the reality was that Stiles didn't want to talk to him. He'd be lucky if Stiles ever talked to him again.

Grabbing his phone, he pulled up the text box and paused. He couldn't text his apology. Instead he pressed the call button. He waited for Stiles' voicemail.

"Stiles, I'm sorry. I should have been honest with you about what I was doing. Actually I realize I shouldn't have done that at all. I just thought If you were happy with Dominic, I wouldn't be able to hurt you. I know now that I hurt you anyway. I know you're upset, and probably hate me right now, but I just want you to know that I am truly sorry."

Derek hung up the phone then. No apology was going to undo what he'd done. He could add that to his list of regrets. 

*AN*
Here's an update for you guys, I couldn't get this chapter right for some reason, it just kept coming out wrong, so I gave up and this is what you got. Sorry if it sucks.