All We Need is Love

Chapter 20

Ricky's p.o.v

I close the door and walk away. I have never seen Ariana look that mad, it was actually scary. I just don't know why she always has to hang out with that dick when she knows that I'm uncomfortable with it. And for her to bring up Mabelynn, she knows that we are friends and nothing more. I guess I can see what she means by it being worse that we didn't have any feelings towards each other but we're just friends and Ari wasn't even in the picture when it happened. I feel my phone buzz and I'm hoping it's Ariana but it's not, it's Mabelynn of course. I read the message and it says "call me ;)"  I decide to ignore it but quickly regret that when her name pops up, she's calling me.

Ricky- what do you want?!

Mabelynn- god what's your problem?

Ricky- it's none of your business okay? Just leave me alone. You don't have to know everything that goes on in my life

Mabelynn- I don't know what I did to you but whatever it was I'm sorry

Ricky- I never should've slept with you. You were a big fucking mistake that I wish I could take back

I hang up the phone and instantly regret being so rude to her. I'll call her tomorrow or something and apologize. I hear the back door open and close and I hear Ariana sniffling from behind me. She sits in the chair next to me and sighs.

Ariana- I should've walked away

Ricky- away from what?

Ariana- you. The first day when I went over to your house and saw you with that girl. I should've known how the rest of our relationship was going to go after that. I should've walked away

Ricky- why would you say that? This was just a little fight

Ariana- a little fight? Ricky we were screaming at each other in front of our newborn twins. If they can't even be here a month and not hear us screaming at each other, what's it going to be like when they're 6 or 13. I don't want them to grow up hearing that

Ricky- they won't even remember this

Ariana- but I will. You don't get it do you?

Ricky- what is there to get? You pretty much just said that you wish we wouldn't have gotten back together and had kids

Ariana- we're both miserable Ricky! Can't you see that?

Ricky- I'm not miserable. Maybe you are but I'm not

Ariana- you can't even trust me to be around one of my friends but you get mad at me when I bring up your situation with your "friend"

Ricky- she IS just a friend. We never had anything more than a friendship. I never told you that I was going to be doing my job when really all I was doing was fucking around with her

Ariana- are you accusing me of cheating on you?

Ricky- I don't know Ariana. You tell me

Ariana- I admit that what I did was wrong, catching feelings for him and continuing to be in a relationship with you and not just telling him we couldn't hang out anymore but I never cheated on you. I would never cheat on you and I've told you that. If anyone should be questioned about cheating it should be you

Ricky- me?

Ariana- yes! You are the one that leaves and goes to a bar to get drunk and start kissing girls

Ricky- okay we're not solving anything right now

Ariana- do we ever? We fight, you leave, I see you with another girl, I get hurt, I forgive you even though I'm still hurt, and we do it all again. It's a never ending process

Ricky- well then why don't you talk to me and tell me how you feel?

Ariana- because you don't care. If you can truly believe that I could see you with another girl and not be hurt then you obviously don't care

Ricky- I do care. We need to just sit here and talk about everything and work through our problems okay?

Ariana- I don't know if I want to though. I'm tired of fighting for something I'm not even sure we can fix

Ricky- after everything that we've been through you're just going to leave after one fight

She stood up and looked down at me.

Ariana- I'm going inside. You can sleep in the bedroom and I'll sleep on the couch down here with the babies

Ricky- I'll stay down here with the babies, you get some rest upstairs in the bed

She turned around and walked into the house. I don't know what I'm going to do, I can't lose her again. We've been through too much but maybe that's the problem, I've put her through all of that. She wouldn't have to have gone through so much if it wasn't for me. I don't want her to be miserable for the rest of her life because of me, I also don't want myself to be miserable for the rest of my life not being with her. I walk inside the house and I go and pick up Hazel. I sit on the couch holding her until I hear something in the kitchen. I get up and go see what it is. Ariana is packing more of the kitchen stuff. She turns around just for a few seconds to glance at me.

Ariana- am I being too loud? I'll stop

Ricky- no it's fine I just thought you went upstairs already

Ariana- not yet. I know I won't be able to sleep

Ricky- I'm sorry that I've made your life miserable

Ariana- you didn't make my life miserable Ricky... some of the things you've done has made me miserable but not you. I love you

She turns around and looks at me. She looks at the baby and smiles a bit then looks back up at me and loses her smile.

Ariana- but it hurts. It hurts to love you and that's not the way that love is supposed to be

Ricky- I'll do anything to make it batter, please just tell me what it is..... just don't tell me we shouldn't be together

Ariana- we'll talk about this tomorrow. I'm going to bed

I watched as she passed me with her eyes filled with tears. I walk into the living room putting the baby back next to Avelynn. I kiss them both on the head and lay on the couch. How am I suppose to sleep not knowing if I'm losing the woman I love?

A/N
I'm so sorry this took so long and honestly I don't think it's that good. I was just really lost with this chapter