Saving her (Colby Fan fiction) DISCONTINUED

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I sigh as they continue arguing and the cabinet door flies open causing me to jump, suddenly I'm being pulled out and into the kitchen. I don't struggle, I just hope he makes this quick. I look and see Colby dragging me by my arms into the kitchen, he turns me around and squats in front of me. "Talk." He says sternly. I look at him confused. Talk about what? "What?" I ask cocking my head to the side. He roughly grabs my arm and points to it. "Talk about why you do this. Why you think it's okay." He says starting to tear up. I quickly pull my arm from his grip and stand up. I walk up the stairs and grab a pair of black nike shorts and a white v-neck. I go to shut Colby's door but he comes in and opens it. "What are you doing?" He asks me. I hold up my clothes and say "changing." He nods and shuts the door then walks over to his bed. He falls onto his bed and closes his eyes, I just shrug and change into my shorts and t-shirt. I open the door and go into the living room, I look around and see that the rest of the roommates are already down here waiting for me. I call Colby down and sigh sitting down on the floor.

*trigger warning: self hate and suicide talk*

I look down and mess with my fingers. "Everything hurts. Not physically, but emotionally. I'm tired of fighting. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. Everyone leaves, forgets me, replaces me, hurts me, plays me, and gives up on me. Am I really that bad?" I ask looking up at them, they all looked shocked that I said that. "Wanna know what makes me sad? When people say I'm strong and can get through it, when I've been giving it my all already and I feel like I'm breaking into pieces. I keep saying I'm fine but I'm not and everyone wants me to be good and feel happy but I can't seem to do it. When people say it's like drowning they're not lying. It doesn't hurt anymore it's just numb and I don't think that's any better. I cut because it reminds me that I'm here. I'm alive and this is my shitty reality, whether I like it or not. At this point I don't really fucking care and yeah I do think about killing myself sometimes because what's stopping me?! I don't have any friends except for you guys and Drew, no one loves me and it's not worth trying anymore. I mean honestly, fuck this. I'm gonna go find something to do it dammit!" I yell standing up. I walk into the kitchen towards the knives when I'm pulled back suddenly and engulfed in a hug from all the roommates. I struggle trying to get out but once everyone pulls away Jake comes over and pulls me into a bear hug. I stop struggling and just start to hold my breath, Jakes notices and whispers "breathe." I just nod but I don't, I continue to hold my breath. He looks at me and says "I'm here, let it all out. It's okay, we're all here for you." Thats when I broke completely and just collapsed in his arms and starting crying. "It's just-" I start but I'm cut off by more people hugging me and comforting me.

*self-hate and suicide talk over*

Jake let go of me and passed me to Colby who hugged me and wouldn't let go, I didn't mind though. I buried my face in the crook of his neck while he drew shapes in my back, I think everyone else had left to go to sleep and I started to fall asleep too. I put my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist, he laughed and started walking upstairs. He walked into his room and shut the door with his foot, then continued to walk towards the bed. He gently laid me down and started to go back towards the door. "Stay." Was all I said. He turned around and gave me a sad smile. He came and laid down with me, we were both facing each other and neither of us said a word. "I'm sor-" I'm cut off by Colby's finger on my lips. I look at him confused but nod to let him know I get the message. "You don't have anything to be sorry for. Okay? I love you. Everyone in the house loves you, we all care about you so much." He says leaning forward. I lean in too and soon his soft and warm lips are against mine. It was a gentle kiss, a loving kiss. He pulls away and I start to lean in again but he shakes his head and winks. "What are you-" I start to ask but Colby leans in and starts kissing all over my face. Not fast and sloppy, slow and gentle. He kissed my forehead, my cheeks, my nose, and then he kissed right behind my ear and whispered 'you're my world' which made me blush like crazy. He chuckled lightly at my actions and bit my earlobe causing me to blush even more. "Colby," I whined. He continued to kiss all over my face and finally pulled away. "Yes babe?" He said with a smirk. "You missed." I said frowning. He laughed and leaned in and kissed me. It was a passionate kiss, he swiped his tongue across my bottom lip but I refused. He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him making me smile. I pulled away to get some air and looked at him again. He's so handsome. I started to wrap my arms around his neck but he stopped me. I groaned and laid flat on my back with my arms crossed. Colby got up and straddled me, then he grabbed my arms and pinned them above my head as he bit my earlobe. I giggled as he whispered "I'm gonna do something but you gotta stay calm." I just nodded in response and he started kissing my neck. "Colby! That tickles!" I squeal. He laughs and continues kissing my neck until I start squirming and then he stops. He releases my arms and I immediately put them around his neck, I notice he's still straddling me and I giggle. "Are you just gonna stay like that?" I ask gesturing to our bodies and he just shrugs grabbing my face, he pulls me into another kiss and we somehow switch positions. My arms are still around his neck but his are on my waist instead of my face. He swiped his tongue across my bottom lip but I refused. He was getting flustered and then he grabbed my ass, causing me to gasp in surprise. He slipped his tongue into my mouth as we continued making out. The rest of the night we just kissed and cuddled.

(A/N) rawr I'm back!! school is starting for me tomorrow so I won't be updating as often but I'll try to update every Friday! also can we just take a second to appreciate how hot Colby is?