My Love

Chapter 7

Wednesday was when school truly started for me. Monday and Tuesday were all blurry , except for the drama. 

Walking to school , I was bruised and achy all over , but there were no permanent scars. Scanning the court yard as I entered , there was no sign of the girls from yesterday. It still horrified me what my hands were capable of.

I didn’t see Haruki.

Did i hurt him too?

NO , I shook my head , I couldn’t of. Could i?

I walked into the class with these thoughts spiraling in my head.

I sat down , heavy with worry , so filled with it i didn’t notice Haruki standing over me.

“Hey you” He laughed.

I was so relieved , I even stared at him for a few moments to check that he was real.

I laughed and caught him in a hug.

He was warm , a feeling I had come to love.

Haruki laughed in my ear , deep and smooth. “Hey now’ He said ‘What’s all this for?”

I could only grin , I was so happy I didn’t hurt him.

Looking at me , a look passed in his eyes. 

It was his turn to hug me , he whispered in my ear. His voice filled with sorrow and worry.

“Are you alright?”

With that , memories or yesterday were refreshed in my mind like a bullet to the heart.

Haruki felt me jump , and he held me tighter.

It nearly shattered my heart , remembering how much I had begged for him to come and how he held me.

What he called me.

“I’ll never let you go......Kasai”

My eyes widened. Kasai , Kasai. His voice calling my name spiraled in my head , my heart thumping like a drum.

“I’m fine” I whisper.

He moves back , looking me in the eyes , searching for any sign of hurt.

But i’m too good for that. My acting covers all hurt , all of anything.

I can’t let him see , I’ve become to close to him already. I’ll only end up hurting myself and him if I let this continue.

It’s time to break away.

The bell rings and all the students file into the class and I take my seat behind Haruki.

The teacher speaks.

“Miss Hinoko , i’ve considered your request to change seats , and i will allow it.’

Haruki looks back at me , confusion and hurt in his eyes , I avoid his gaze. I know this is for the better.

‘but I do not want another request from you. Where I put you know you will have to stay. Understood?”

I nod at him.

“Please sit next to Krystabel.”

He points over to a skinny , Japanese looking girl in the last row of the classroom

I gather my things and walk over , not giving Haruki a single glance.

As I take my seat , I wonder about the girl I sit next to.

She seems Japanese , but her name makes no sense.

Probably a mix I decide.

As class begins . she looks at me.

She has jet black hair and a wide face.

“Hallo!” She greets me enthusiastically

“Hi” I say simply not turning to face her

“Will you sit with me at lunch?” She asks suddenly

“Uh.....sure?”

“Great” She says smiling , grinning widely.

With that , she turns away and says nothing to me.

Until lunch time.

Class had gone smoothly , the loud bell began the lunch time period.

I grabbed my bag and left quickly , I didn’t want to get stopped by Haruki , he had been glancing back at me the entire time in class.

That was exactly what I didn’t want.

Krystabel is waiting for me outside the classroom.

“Hawwo! You ready?” She asks

I notice Haruki coming closer to the door.

“Yeah’ I say hurriedly 

I grab her arm and rush towards the canteen as I hear Haruki calling my name.

“Hey’ She says as we enter the canteen ‘I think someone was calling you.”

“Nah , I don’t think so. I didn’t hear anyone.”

I leave her and go order food.

Guilt weighing me done. I feel horrible for leaving Haruki like that. Not even a single word and after all he’s done for me.

But i know its for the better, either leave him or hurt him.

I prefer option one.

But I hope , i’ll be able to control myself 

I’m not sure , if i can keep myself away.

The sound of cold pasta being piled onto my plastic tray jolts me out of my thoughts.

I shuffle along and head down to the table that was reserved by Krystabel.

As i tackle the mass of cold pasta , Krystabel started talking.

“You don’t remember me do you?”

I look up from my mass of tangled alien brains.

“Have we met before?” I ask taking a mouthful and quickly realizing why no one else had taken the pasta.

“A long time ago we had. You don’t remember?”

Abandoning my cold mass of intestines , i focus on Krystabel.

I try to remember , but I had learned to forget people easily.

A question popped up.

Why could I remember Haruki , but not Krystabel?

“I’m sorry , but i cant remember you”

A smile appeared on her face. “I thought you wouldn’t. After all , i know you forget people easily.”

My eyes widened , How much did this girl know about me?

“How do you..............” My voice trails off.

“I had another name when you knew me.” She says finally

I wait to hear her name.

Suddenly Haruki grabs my arm.

‘Excuse us” He says as he starts to drag me off.

No! I scream in my head , don’t! Let me go! I need to know who she is!

I see her  mouth a name.

Hinoko Mizu.

I HAVE A SISTER!!!??!?!??!?!