My Love

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

It hit me how much we weren’t friends when the first thing that he did was walk away from me and join his friends when we exited the bus.

I didn’t take it up with him , I simply walked away. He didn’t mean that much too me anymore anyway.

At least that’s what I told myself.

I acted in school like I had in every other one. The happy , laughing ,,energetic kind that people spoke too.

I entered my class , I was given the same greeting as every other place. A happy choir of “Welcome to our school” by my soon to be class mates.

I smiled and bowed , and thanked everyone. The teacher looked over at me.

“Hinoko , please take a seat behind Haruki.”

I wasn’t surprised that I got the same class as him. He grinned at me as i took my place behind him.

As class started , I couldn’t do anything.

The only thing I could do was stare. At his stupid fluffy hair.

It was as annoying as it was wrong. I knew in my head I should stop fantasizing but I just couldn’t.

What the hell had this moron done to me!?

Whatever it was , it had to stop and sitting behind him wasn’t going to help.

My hand went straight up. I was determined , until the bell rang.

“Class dismissed” the teacher announced , students rose and left , I gathered my things and left too.

The teacher stopped me on the way out.

“What was your question?” 

I pondered for a moment wether to bring it up , but it felt irrelevant.

“it was nothing’ I smile ‘Thank you sir , have a nice day.”

I leave with that , and Haruki is outside....waiting for me.

“Hey you , think you can just leave without saying a word?”

I turn back at him , what i say next. I never wanted too.

“You did it too. Why can’t i?”

I wish I could take back the words , they left cold and unfeeling and as soon as they left my mouth i wanted them back.

He stares at me , I cant quite read his face.

He puts on a sheepish grin and looks down to his shoes “Yeah , hehe sorry bout that.”

Before I could get in a word to say what I replied i didnt mean. A boy grabbed my shoulder and spun me around.

“Hey you. WHat the hell do you think your doing?” He demands.

I stare back calmly , yet i’m confused.

“Well , answer me!”

“Please’ I sigh , I was tired and just wanted to go eat ‘Tell me what your going on about.”

He sighs  as if im yesterdays trash he forgot to take out.

“You’r just some noob at our school don’t aim so high .’ He hisses tightening his grip on my shoulder  ‘What the hell do you think your doing talking to Haruki? Huh?”

Where was Haruki? Why did he have to bring me into all this.

He could of warned me “Hey just wanna say , I have insane fan boys who wanna kill you , watch out.”

“Look I really ha-”

I felt a hand on my shoulder.

Haruki’s voice rang out and the boy froze.

“Please , Takano. She’s my girlfriend. Don’t pick on her.”

G....gi.....GIRLFRIEND!!!???!?!!?

Takano’s hand shot back , dropping me. Painfully.

Haruki moves close grabbing my waist and pulling me towards him. 

“Takano’ He looks straight at the boy.

“You.... but you promised that.......” the boys words trail off and he turns and run’s with a choking expression on his face.

Im too confused. I can’t think , the words “girlfriend” keep spiraling in my head.

I pull myself out of his grasp.

“What the hell!” I yell

“What?’ he replies cooly ‘I helped you out didn’t i?”

I can’t say a single word.

Why am i happy that he called me his girlfriend. I don’t know what to do. That one word sent me out of control. 

I do the only thing I know how to.

I turn and run.

I run down the hallways and keep running till i’m out of breath and in the restricted section of the school.

The hallways are dark or dimly lit. Its hot and the air is musty , no breeze or wind travels down the halls. No sunlight pierces through the windows.

My chest is heaving. I don’t know what caused this.

Was it the contact? The way of his voice? That word?

No , it was his smile. The same smile from 10 years. it was that  , that sent my stupid heart beating.

How he held me and how his eyes where when he held me and looked down at me and called me his “girlfriend” , the way he smiled after he said it.

Could he.......just maybe.....meant it.....just a little?

I shook the thought away. That was just my wish. My stupid little dream , delusion that wouldn’t go. I knew it would never happen.

My shoulder ached from Takano’s strong grip. I leaned against the wall and slid down , curling myself up.

I needed to relax. Get a hold on myself.

“That moron” I curse.

I didn’t know the time , I must’ve fallen asleep. I remember the events and my stomach lurches. 

I check my watch “8:30”.

I sighed , on top of everything else , I had to spend the night at school.

My shoulder still ached and my stomach growled fiercely.

The corridor i was in was dim , the lights barely managed to stay on.

I wonder whether anyone wondered where I had gone. I doubted so.

I hauled myself off the floor , my legs weak and wobbly , my head spinning.

I fell back against the wall , trying to catch my breath and gain some control.

The last thing I needed was for Haruki to show up.