My Love

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

How could I have forgotten her? How could I have ever lost her? How did i never know about her?

Memories flooded back as Haruki dragged me down corridors.

Going to school , playing with my parents.

How could I ever of forgotten her?

Haruki stopped and pushed me away.

“What did i do?”

“huh?”

“You’ve been avoiding me all day! I at least want to know what i did”

“You did nothing , i have to go now.” I say , I need to get back to Mizu.

“Tell me the truth!’ He demands , but i keep pushing against his grip trying to get free. ‘Or am i not worth your time?”

I manage to push past his arm , and I start running.

I turn back “You did nothing wrong! I have to go now!” I yell.

Haruki says nothing in reply , he just looks at me.

As I run back to Mizu , i wonder what that look meant.

I stop dead in my tracks.

Have I lost him?

No , I continue running , i’m just being paranoid. I haven’t lost him! Have i?

I’m about to run into the canteen , but a hand is suddenly on my shoulder.

I turn around.

“Mizu” I whisper.

Her name had brought back so much of my life , all my happy memories had come back with a name.

She and I look nothing a like. She has jet black hair while I have fiery red hair.

It was because my father married twice. When my mother died when i was born , he quickly remarried to a lady who had just had her dead husbands baby. 

So really she was my quarter sister. But family non the less.

My father agreed to take the baby in and we spent 4 years together.

Until our parents died. They died in an accident. Custody was hard since we had completely different families. In the end we were separated , she was taken away with her Aunt and I was carted off to my Uncle.

We never saw each other again.

Until now. My head was so clouded with her return that I never even thought of the repercussions of my actions to Haruki.

I never knew that i really did hurt him.

I turned around and she hugged me , in return I clung to her tightly.

Mizu buried her head in my shoulders. “I found you again’ She laughed ‘You can’t run from me.”

“I guess not.”

I wish now that I had  let go and run back to Haruki.

I wish now I hadn’t held on.

I wish now I hadn’t asked more questions.

I wish i knew then what I knew now.

“Mizu , how did you find me? Why is your name Krystabel now?”

Pulling out of the hug Mizu said “ My actual name is Krystabel , but my mother married into your japanese family. So my name was changed. My Aunt , the wonderful woman she is’ Mizu spat ‘Changed it back.. Why? Even i don’t know.”

“ I see” I say finally

“How I found you? Well , I did some tracking here and there. Some high action spying’ I cut her off with a i-so-believe-you look.

Mizu laughs “Pure coincidence my dear , but when I saw you. I knew it was you....Kasai”

With that we held each other again.

The afternoon classes went well , but i didn’t see Haruki.  And it hurts me now that I never even noticed that he was gone.

I was so wrapped up in Mizu now , that even Haruki didn’t matter too me.

After classes finished , I planned to head home for the first time in 3 days.

Not that my Uncle would have missed me.

As I headed to the exit an elderly lady in a tight skirt stopped me.

“Mizz Hinoko?” She asked

“uh , yes that me.” I say

“We have received a letter from your guardian that you will be staying in the school dorms from now on. The movers have arrived with your things yesterday and it has all been installed in your room.” The teacher says.

“Oh’ I say not surprised. I knew my Uncle would kick me out as soon as he got the chance “Thank you.”

“Come now’ The teacher said walking ‘I will take you to your dorm”

I followed silently in the wake of the elderly teacher , soon the corridors began to look familiar.

“Here we are” The teacher said finally.

I was neighbors with Haruki!!!!!!!???

I thanked the teacher and quickly went inside , I didn’t want to bump into Haruki. Not at all.

The events of today didn’t lift the guilt they only made it worse. I could only hate myself for being so lighthearted around you. I knew i had ruined things.

I had to fix it. I couldn’t leave it like this. I dropped my bag and ran out the door.

I didn’t even hesitate at his door , I burst straight in.

My heart stopped , i clamped my hand over my mouth , my chest became so tight. I looked away and my body froze as the door shut softly behind me.

Haruki.in.a.towel.

Only.

He sighed and ruffled his hair.

“This is why people knock. What do you want?” Haruki sighed.

Rooted to the spot , blushing brighter than a cherry , and feeling like the worlds largest idiot i mutter “Nothing”

“Then get out. I don’t need you”

I was shocked , his tone. The way he looked at me. 

Dont need me?

Haruki looked away “Don’t make me repeat myself” He growled.

My eyes widened.

I knew it. I knew it! I had ruined it! If only i hadn’t run. If only.

I kept looking at him. Slowly step by step i backed out and i launched myself into my room.

I lay on my bed with tears streaming from my eyes.

I had learned to deal with people , so they’re hurtful words didn’t hurt. But with Haruki it was different.

The words “I don’t need you” shredded my heart to pieces.

It hurt. It hurt so much.

I knew trusting someone would get me hurt. I knew it yet i followed my heart.

Which i’l never do again.

I curled up on my bed , tears flowing like waterfalls. The pain didn’t stop. Neither did the tears.

Soon , sleep crawled into my body and i fell into an uneasy rest.