it's just a crush .

s i x .

casey's pov ;

" le-let go of me , samuel "
i struggle to get loose from his grip.

" you're fucking mine. i dont care who i have to fight. whether we're together or not. you're mine. "
he spits back at me.
" okayyy , but are you mine ? you dont want me fucking with anybody else , while you fuck with everybody ? haha. no. "
he was shocked by what i had said. he lets go of me and stares into my eyes.
" i used to lose sleep over you , be sad because you didnt want to be with me. but now , i promise you wont catch me tripping over you. just like you were leading me on but doing your own thing , im not even looking your way anymore , samuel. enjoy. "
i said with a low but cold voice.
i turn around and walk through my front door , shutting it behind me. i run upstairs and into my room and find matt looking at my old cheerleading pictures from when i was an 8th grader in middle school. i moved to that school in 8th grade and he had just left to high school so we never got the proper chance to meet.
as i walked in and shut the door he looked up and smiled.
" wow casey , you were cute then , and you're cute now. i looked like a chicken nugget in seventh and eighth grade. "
he let out.
i chuckled ,
" haha. thank you matt , and whatever , mr. popular. "
he sighed and responded
" that's how everyone sees me and treats me , you dont. you know what everyone thinks of me. but you dont treat me that way. you treat me like anyone else. that's what i love about you..  "
it was silent until i picked up my white owl rillo pack from my dresser and nudged him over to the window.
" i hope you dont mind , i have to smoke on my roof since my family doesnt like me smoking "
i say before laughing.
" of course not , i understand. mine doesnt either. "
i give him a welcoming smile and crawl out of my window. he follows and does the same.
we sit on my roof and look up at the stars and i begin to light the blunt. he showed me how to do a bunch of inhale tricks. once we were already more than half way done with the blunt we did shotgun. ( if you dont know what that is i will explain in the author's note at the end of this chapter ) he then asked me what happened with samuel. i explain to him everything and he just shook his head.
" im sorry. i didnt know i wouldve caused trouble coming here "
he apologizes.
" look , it's fine. no trouble for me. you're helping me. thank you. but i am sorry for any trouble i am causing for you guys in the future . "
he nudges me and gives me a warm smile before saying , " hey , whatever happens , happens . and whatever doesnt , doesnt. it's all worth it , though. "
im not sure what he means by ' worth it ' , but i shake it off , already feeling my high.

a / n ; 520 wordsssss mannnnn , currently 2:15 am right now but oh my godddd guys tomorrow im going to my ex's house and all of his family is going to be there and i havent seen him in 7 months and we have already been broken up a whole yearrrrr b ! i lowkey can tell it bothers my boyfriend that im going but he says he trusts me & since my boy best friend will be there w me he's fine with it but little does he know i used to talk to my boy best friend😭😭😭💀. okay okay gooodnighttt