I'm Not Fine / L.H. \

Chapter 1

*Angels POV*

I don't really remember exactly what happened. One minute I'm lying on the cement floor of my "Fathers" basement screaming my heard off and the next I'm in an ambulance headed to the hospital. It was all a blur. Does this mean I'm finally free? Do I get to go back to being normal even after four years of imprisonment?

All these questions run through my head as the doctor goes on and on about my medication but all I care about is that today I'm being released from my 3 week stat at the hospital.

"Now Miss Scott we tried contacting your foster parents several times and never heard from them. Because you are still underaged we can't release you without an adult present to care for you. Is there anyone you can call? Any relatives close?" She asks me

I rack my brain trying to think of someone. I'm an only child and all my relatives live in America. I've never met any of them. Liz Hemmings.

"Yeah I have someone to call." I say trying to contain my anxiousness.

"Good. I can met you use one of the secretary phones to call. May I ask who it is?" She says

"She's my best friends mom. I know she would do anything for me." I say smiling and looking at the ground.

She simply smiles and leads me to the phone. I'm nervous. What if she's forgotten about me? I push all the 'what ifs' away and dial Liz's number. After three rings I hear her voice on the other end.

"Hello?" Wow I've missed her so much.

"Liz. Oh my gosh." I say tearing up.

"I'm sorry can I ask who this is?" She says confused.

"Yeah I'm sorry. Liz it's Angel. I-I need someone to pick me up." I say starting to cry.

"Oh my goodness." She says this so quietly I almost can't hear her. "Darling I'm so happy to hear your voice. I thought I wouldn't ever see you again." I can hear her crying.

"I need someone to pick me up. Can you please help me?"

"Oh Angel of course! Where are you honey?"

"I'm at North Central Hospital."

"I'll be there in fifteen minutes."

I hang up the phone and the nurse standing next to me smiles. The doctor comes back and I ye her that Liz will be here shortly. She smiles and hands me the cloths I came in.

They must have been washed because they are no longer dingy and dirty but clean once again. I walk to the bathroom and change into my jean short and slip on the black converse. I don't out the shirt on yet. Technically it not mine. It's Luke. I was wearing it the night I was taken. I haven't seen it clean in four years.

I pull it over my head. You would think I would have grown I to it by how as I was smaller then but it the compete opposite. It was even bigger than it used to be. I sigh and walk out if the bathroom.

Walking into the waiting room I see the blonde woman that I spent so much time with so long ago. Her eyes find my green ones and she breaks into a large smile. I take off towards her and almost jump into her open arms.

"Oh my darling Angel. I'm so happy to see you." She exclaims hugging me tightly.

"I missed you so much Liz." I feel the warn tears travel down my cheeks.

"Let's get you home ok?" She says taking my hand and leading me outside.

The drive was short but I enjoyed it. The radio played music I had never heard before. We pulled into the Hemmings house and I immediately remembered everything. The house next door the most. It was empty with a for sale sign up. My house.

We walk inside and it's quite. It's never quiet in this house. Maybe Luke went over to Calum or Michaels. Maybe Ashton's?

"Liz where is Luke?" I ask

"Oh my gosh I never even thought that you wouldn't have known. Angel he's on tour. 5sos took off. There big now. It's incredible." she answers with a tear.

"Oh god. I can't believe that I missed everything. I can't believe I missed his band becoming famous. I'm such a lousy best friend." I say dropping to the floor and putting my head I to my hands.

"Angel! Don't you dare talk that way. It's not your fault sweetie. You can control what your father did. If Luke knew you were here he would drop everything and be here with you. But he thinks your dead. Please don't blame yourself for anything." She's reassures me.

We don't say anything else. She just sits next to me, rubbing my back, and letting me cry. I cry and I sob and I even scream a little bit. I cry because I missed out on growing up. I cry because I miss my best friend. I cry for everything that has happened.

When I'm finished Liz tells me to take Luke's room for now and I don't argue. As soon as I enter a thousand memories hit me at once. It smells like him. I curl up in his bed and hug the pillow to my body an slowly drift off to sleep.

When I open my eyes I smile. For the first time in four years I wake up without a scream. I wake up without being scared for my life. I sort through all Luke's drawers an pull out and old shirt and a pair of athletic shorts.

After putting them on I walk down the stairs to hear Liz talking on the phone. Everything seems so surreal. Being here and Luke being famous. Liz hang up and continues making breakfast and turns the radio on. The music she listens to is different. It's like the music Luke used to listen to.

"Good morning sleepy head. Care for any breakfast?" She asks cheerily

"I would I've some. I haven't had real food in ages." I say taking a small bite of the waffles she made.

We sit in silence listening to the radio when suddenly the DJ starts to speak.

"Alright everyone. Here's a new one that everyone loves. She Looks So Perfect is next.

The song starts with a guitar. Liz's face lights up and I'm really confused.

"Simmer down, summer down." She song starts.

That voice. I know that voice.

"Oh my gosh. Liz is that... Is that Luke?!" I ask astounded

"Yes that's my little boy all grown up and famous." She says smiling

I listen to the song and laugh at the chorus. I smile and look at Liz.

"I forgot to tell you Angel! We're taking a week off to go see Luke. He said he wanted to see his mom and I'm sure he will be ecstatic to see you. We leave tomorrow afternoon." She says going on and on about the new plans.

"Liz. Liz oh my gosh this... This is amazing. I can't believe I get to see Lueky! Oh yeah and Calum, Michael, and Ashton." I say almost crying.

We talk for hours about everything that has happened with 5 Seconds of Summer and what the boys have been up to.

I can't believe I'm going to see my Luke in less less than 48 hours.