I'm Not Fine / L.H. \

Chapter 2

*Angels POV*

I haven't been on a plane since I was 7. I haven't been shopping for a new wardrobe since I was 11. And I haven't seen Luke since I was 13.

This morning Liz and I got up and she bought me an entire wardrobe much to my discontentment. We packed enough for a week and got on a plane to London.

Liz told me we would surprise Luke at the concert tonight and spend the week with him and the boys.

I drift to sleep only to be woken by Liz a few hours later.

"Sweetheart we are here." Liz says smiling.

London is beautiful. All the buildings and everything. I've never been to England. We arrive at the hotel close to 6 o'clock. The concert starts at 8. So we quickly change and get back into the car to get to the venue.

When we arrive there are thousands of screaming girls standing in line to get in. When Liz parks and gets out I can't move. I'm intimidated and can't even get out of the car. I'm frozen.

"Angel sweetie it's ok. There is a bodyguard waiting for us at the side door. And then we can see Luke ok."

I look at her but all the screams make my stomach ache and my breathe quickens. Oh no not here. Please not now. The car seems to get smaller and the world starts spinning. Anxiety attacks.

After what seems like hours I finally calm down enough to escape the confinement of the car. The guard is standing at the door as promised.

He leads us backstage and I can hear the voices of the boys I grew up with it. They're all laughing and talking about how excited they are about playing the show.

"Liz. I can't do this. What if they've forgotten about me? They probably won't remember me!" I say playing with the ends of my blonde hair.

"How about I go first. Then you can come when your ready ok?"

I nod and she walks over. I peer around the curtain and see four grown boys. There he is standing twenty feet away from me. He looks so different. He can't see me but I can see him. The same bright blue eyes and dimpled smile. Holy crap is that a lip ring?! Dang Lukey your a grown up. And he's super tall now. His hair is standing up instead of his usually fringe. Well I guess it's not usual anymore.

Calum, Ashton, and Michael don't look too different. All three if them are taller and more muscular. Michaels hair is dyed white with a black stripe down the middle. Calum has a Cohen tattoos but looks pretty normal. Ashton looks the same, accept he has stopped straightening his hair and is letting get curly now.

Luke and his mom talk for a while and the anxiety is starting to build inside me. I can't take it any longer. I walk out from behind the curtain but Luke's back is still turned.

I lock eyes with Calum, then Michael, and Ashton. All of their mouths fall open. Liz smiles and takes Luke's shoulders and turns him around to face me. The tears are already running down my face. He looks stunned.

"This is your surprise Luke." Liz says patting his arm.

"Hi Luke." I say my voice wavering

"This. This isn't real." He whispers "I'm asleep. I have to be dreaming."

He looks at the boys and they're all speechless.

"Lukey it's me. It's Angel." I say hesitating before taking a step towards him.

"Mom. I-I thought she was dead. What is going in?!" He asks his voice raising.

I flinch and I'm about to run alway when Calum takes the opportunity to run and hug me. I hug him back but my eyes are on Luke. He looks angry and upset at the same time.

"Angel we all thought you were gone. Don't worry he's just taking it hard. Give him a minute to catch his breath." Ashton whiskers hugging me after Calum let's me go.

I smile and Michael comes to me next. He's ways been more laid back so he doesn't say anything. He just hugs me tight and meta me cry a little. When I look up Luke and Liz are talking and Luke is crying.

"Ok that's it!" I yell letting Michael go. "Lucas Robert Hemmings I can't stand to see you cry and I haven't seen you in four years so stop being so weird." I'm out of breath and the years are coming faster.

He just looks at me for a second before sweeping me off my feet and hugging me tight. I nuzzle my face into the base of his neck and cry. My feet are off the ground because of the height difference so I wrap my legs around his torso. I feel his tears on my bare shoulder.

I don't know how it happened but somehow we ended up on the couch. Me sitting in his lap curled up into his chest crying our eyes out together.

"Angel. My Angel." He kept whispering. "How?" He finally said

"I really don't know. One minutes I'm screaming on a cement floor ad the next I wake up in an ambulance." I say wiping my eyes. "I missed you so much Luke."

"Oh Angel I missed you too. More than you can imagine." He whispers pulling me into him again.

We just sit there in each others company before he's called away for his show.

"Please don't leave me again my Angel. I'll be back after the show. You and my mom can watch from the side." He says smiling.

I watch the four of them run out on stage and greet the cheering crowd. Liz had to take a call so I stand by myself on the side watching then sing their hearts out. They're even better than I remember.

Every once I'm a while Luke looks over in my direction as if to make sure I'm not going anywhere. I just smile an give him a small wave.
Sometime during the concert a random guy sits next to me. He has brown curly hair and green eyes like mine. I give him a funny look but he just smiles.

"Hi I'm Harry Styles." He says putting a hand out.

"Hey Harry I'm Angel Scott." I say quietly

"Wait wait wait. Thee Angel. Like the one Calum, Ashton, and Michael talk about. Wow your a legend." He says half joking I think.

"Wow the boys actually talked about me?" I say kinda stunned

"Yeah they did but they never did when Luke was around." He says

We talk for a little while an he makes me laugh. Harry's a funny guy and its the first time I've laughed in literally years. I catch Luke's eye again as I'm laughing with Harry. He looks almost angry. He quickly goes back to his singing and doesn't look at me the rest of the night.

I soon learn that Harry is apart of One Direction, the band that 5sos is opening for. Harry has to leave to get ready for their part of the show and I leave to go find Liz. I stay with her as Luke, Calum, Michael, and Ashton file off stage with smiles in their faces.

I stand back behind the curtain again and wait for them to calm down. They jump around and yell and it makes me flinch. It goes in for a good 20 minutes before Luke stand up in a panic. His face goes completely pale. He looks all around the room and then runs over to where Liz is talking with the stylist. He looks like he might break down.

"No. No. No this can't be happening. Not again!" He sinks to the floor.

I rush out from behind the curtain.

"Oh my gosh Luke what's wrong?" I run over to him.

Before I can say anything else he jumps up and wraps his arms around me. I'm taken back but recover and return his hug.

"Luke are you ok? Your making me nervous." I say shakily.

"When you weren't backstage I thought you were gone again. I-I never want to loose you again. It just scared me." He says quietly.

"Oh Luke. Don't worry about me. I was just behind the curtain. It's just sometime I get anxiety attacks and I get really nervous and I'm not normal anymore." I stutter out.

I'm about to continue but he just shushes me.

"Angel I will always be looking out for you no matter what. I'm here for you and I don't plan on letting you go anytime soon."

He just hug me again and I feel safe for the first time since I was young.