I'm Not Fine / L.H. \

Chapter 5

*Angels POV*

The nightmares never ended. It was a constant replay of the last four years. I could never escape the terror he had caused me. It was getting so bad that when I woke up at night all I could do was lay with Luke and pray that he would keep me safe.

I have to admit apart from the constant nightmares touring with the guys was a blast. Michael, Calum, Ashton and I were already the best of friends again and I wouldn't trade it for the world. The One Direction guys were also pretty awesome to be around. They were always laughing and having a good time. I loved being on tour.

The past three weeks since I've been on tour with them Luke and I have spent the most amount of time together as we possibly can. I mean come on! We have to make up for four years of lost best friend time. And this particular day was like any other.

The boys and I were grabbing a bite to eat before the show tonight and then we would part out separate ways. We always made habit of eating together because I usually wouldn't see then until very late at night or the next morning.

"Hey Angel I meant to ask you if you wanted to go to the club with us tonight after the show?" Luke asks as they're about to leave to get to rehearsal.

"Luke I'm 17. I'm not legal yet!" I say shoving him playfully a little bit.

"Oh come one I don't want you to drink I just want you to come with us. Please Angel Wings?!" He pleads

"Alright. I'll go. It can't be that bad." I answer.

He claps his hands like a small child and runs off to catch up with the rest if the group. The things I do for that boy...

The concert, as always, was amazing and fun. The boys always came off the stage with a buzz. I had gotten more comfortable with the whole concert thing but I always stayed backstage. Someday I hope that I can watch from the front row.

The five of us watch the 1D boys jump around the stage and mess with each other happily. They were something but I had become friends with all of them and they were great!

After the show Luke, Calum, Michael, Ashton, and I pile into a van waiting for us outside. I had changed out of my skinny jeans and t shirt and swapped them for a dress. It was red with sleeve. It stopped about 3 inches above my new and I added a pair of sparkly black heels. Not tall stiletto heels, smaller heels but still a bit fancy.

"Come on Angel your being slow!" Calum whines as he drags me into the club.

"Shut up Cal your just being to fast for my liking." I retort with a smirk.

He just rolls his eyes and continues to drag me around. We all find a booth towards the back of the club. Within minutes Michael and Calum are already talking to a group of girls standing at the bar, while Ashton is ordering a drink. Luke stays at the table with me not moving.

"Luke you don't have to babysit me. I'm a big girl. Go enjoy yourself and I'll find you if I need you." I tell him ushering him off.

He's about to reply but I slap a hand over his mouth and push him alway. I roll my eyes as he disappears into the crowd. This will be a long night.

I check my silver iPhone for the time. 11:32. It's not to late. Liz bought me a phone right before she left insisting that I needed one. It was nice and I really liked it but it was weird after not being around technology much in four years.

I walk up and sit at one of the bar stools and order a coke. The bar tender obliges and brings it to me shortly. I sit and drink my coke watching as the many people surrounding me flirt effortlessly.

"Can I buy you a drink?" I hear a voice from beside me say.

I turn to face a guy maybe 19 or 20 at the most who is now occupying the seat next to me.

"Sorry I don't drink." I reply over the loud music.

"Then what are you doing here?" He asks dumbfounded

"Designated driver for some friends of mine." I say

"Well then how about a dance?" He says standing up and offering his hand.

"Oh what the heck." I take his hand and he leads me to the dance floor.

What harm can one dance do right? I'm new to this bit everyone around me is grinding in each other. I take a step back from him suddenly feeling as though this wasn't the best idea. But before I know it I can feel used getting lost in the music. My hips move back and forth to the beat and the strangers hands at on my waist.

He pulls me a little closer so that our faces out inches apart. I go to move away but his hand is holding me tightly against him. He starts to kiss me but I push him away.

"Come in let's take this somewhere else." He says taking my hand and practically dragging me over to a deserted area of the club.

"I'm sorry I really need to find my friends now." I say walking away.

"No. They don't need you. Stay." He says almost angrily grabbing at my wrist and pulling me back to him.

I try to push him off of me but its no use he's a lot stronger than I am. He kisses me roughly, pinning me against the wall behind us. I try to fight him but to no avail. I wriggle around and make as difficult as I can for him. He pulls me roughly away form the wall and with the close proximity of our faces I can smell the alcohol on his breathe. Before he can get a word out I hear someone yelling from behind me.

"Get you filthy hands off of her you bastard!" I hear a deep voice yell.

I whip around to see Luke and Michael approaching. Michael grabs my hand and pulls me to the side and standing in front if me. I peek around his talk frame just in time to see Luke lunch the guy right in the face. The man quickly retaliates with a hit to Luke's jaw. I gasp and try to go see if Luke is ok but I'm held back my Michael's firm grip.

"He's fine just stay behind me." He says watching Luke closely.

The two of them are about to take another swing at one another when suddenly Calum appears. Before Luke can hit the guy Calum pulls him away and yells at the man to leave while he has the chance.

By this time my breathing is shaking and choppy. I've never seen someone take a hot for me beige. I'm always the one being hit. The first chance I get I get loose if Michaels hold and run to Luke who is now leaking against the wall.

"Oh my gosh please tell me you're ok! You didn't have to do that ya know?" I tell him wrapping my arms around his waist.

"I'm fine but yes I did have to do that. It's my sworn duty to protect you." He says in my ear hugging me close.

"Why don't we all just head back to the bus?" Calum suggests as Luke and I pull apart.

We all nod in agreement and Michael runs off to find Ash. We're back at the tour bus before I know it and let's just say I won't be visiting clubs anytime soon.

The tour bus is a decent size but I've learned to love it the last few weeks. We each have our own bunk but there is only one bathroom. Which is pretty bad with 5 people but we manage. There is a couch and a TV with the boys gaming systems and games. And a small area that could be classified as a kitchen. But all I all I find it quite charming.

I change out of the tight dress and into a pair of comfy sweatpants that I refinish to be Luke's old ones. I slip on my favorite sweatshirt and a pair of fuzzy socks. Hopefully tonight I will be able to sleep.