I starred at myself in the mirror. still holding the razor to my torso. there were already 12 cuts on my torso. i couldn't take it yesterday. i just couldn't. My cuts being revealed, Dani peer pressuring, and Harry being in the same room as i and Dani. and the way he looked at me while i was on the platform. biting his lip just starring. i felt do uncomfortable! what was i supposed to do?! let him stare. i just turned around. i cant face him and Dani. now i really cant. Dani knows about these cuts, Harry hates me-again. and did you see Dani's face?! she was so sad and scared! who knows what she'll do and who she'll tell. what's next, Zayn sees blood on his razors? I've been using the same one. i agreed to myself this particular one hurts most. how do you shave? i cant grow a moustache. hell, neither can Harry. but forget him. i cant even know my feelings on Dani because she knows my cuts exist. i wish i didn't exist because maybe i wouldn't be in this mess im in right fucking now! blood ran on my fingers as the cut was made. i washed the blood off my fingers. hm..I'll just say it was...Kool Aid. yeah. i dry the cut and yell in pain as the water made contact with the fresh cut. i sighed and turned to my room. Zayn has finally come back home. i would tell him about these but i dont know what to say, how to say it.
" Take it easy what happened." he yelled as i hunched over in pain. he put a hand on my back and stomach and tried to straighten me. i yelled in pain. " what did i do?! talk to me what happened!" he said. i hissed in pain and push his hand away. he grip the end of my shirt and slowly pulled it up. i jerk backwards. " Stop!" i yelled pulling it down. " what is wrong with you!? are you sick!?"
" i-i threw up. my stomach hurts."
" whats that." he slowly grabbed my fingers. " c-candles."
" we dont own candles Niall we pay our light bill."
" Please just let me go. please, Zayn. trust me. i-im fine." i said. he starred at me. he let go. " i-im heading to work if you want a ride." he mumbled. even though it hurt i ran to my room and pulled on black skinny jeans a white shirt and blue converses. i pulled on my new blue denim jacket and caught up with Zayn as he brushed his hair. he greeted me quietly. which was weird. we get in his car and drive to work. Zayn was quiet as we get out. He locks his car and we head in. he parts from me without a good luck or a see ya later like usual. i shrug it off thinking he was just tired. lets be honest do you really think you'd like to get up everyday at 7 am? i haven't caught up with Liam in a while so i headed his way. he was talking to Dani. his face looking serious. my heart begins to pound against my chest hardly. they see me. Liam stops leaning on the wall. he hugs me. i give a warning look to Danielle. she puts her hsnds up in defense shaking her head mouthing; " PROMISE!" Liam let go. " Hey Niall. how's it going with um.." Liam said as he turned red. i noticed Harry talking to a make-up artist. i sighed. " i dont know...." i mumble. " oh well um..i kind of over heard him talking. you and Zayn and i have a new position in there. so um..we'll be together like we planned. me and Zayn hit Harry up and thanked him for-"
" wait he did this?"
" yeah. he thought we'd look good on the cover-"
" the cover!?"
" um..yeah. but good luck with that Twitter feed Dani and I'll see you in a while Niall." he hit my arm lightly and smiled at Dani and walked away. i was left facing her. she looked up. " I-i didn't tell him about it."
" i know lets not talk about-"
" when."
" i dont-"
" Why?!"
" Danielle we dont need to talk-"
" well Dammit i need to know!!!" i jumped at her outburst. " i-" she sighed. " i just wanna know why Niall. why would you cut yourself?"
" its family stress."
" no its not because it happened right after you and Harry fought!-"
" no it didn't i dont show my body out on magazines so how would you know!!!"
" Because i know you."
" and i know you. big deal."
" Niall. tell me. please." she begged.
" I started cutting when Harry made me choose between you or him that night at the hotel. i was so confused with two people. i saw Zayn's razors and...-" i felt a churn in my gut. Dani wiped a tear from her face. " Im going in now." i left her in the hall.
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