I Wanted To Do It

Prolougue

I wanted to do it. The waves shattered against the cliff side. I stared down at the jagged rocks, the clouded sky as miserable as me. No friends, abusive family, no lover, there was no reason to stay, no special someone or something that showed up in my life that made everything change like in the stories. I looked at my arms, sliced like fruit, tattered like an old book. A replica of me, on my arms, so beautifully pained and dying, artistically suicidal, hidden like secrets at the bottom of the ocean. A sob caught in my throat, this was it, it was almost over. I closed my eyes and took everything in as tears of relief spilling from my eyes to the waters below. Tears staining on my face, I laughed, hysterically, and neared the edge. "Goodbye!" I screamed, "Fuck you all."
I stepped off. Everything slowed and I realised this wasn't what I wanted. My hand shot out and grasped the edge. No one knew I was like this. I couldn't do it. The pain stabbed through my arms as I used all my strength to heave myself to safety. I wanted to live. I wanted to do it

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Hiya, i promise the whole book isnt this depressing, i think, its not entirely thought out but i do want it to be romance perhaps? Anyways idk if i'll finish this lol, but i had a sudden spark of inspiration, probably cos some stuff is happening irl atm, but yanno, in Gabbie Hanna's words "Find a way to be grateful for your pain, then you will find happiness" so yay :)) please vote and comment some ideas? That'll keep me more inspired ig.

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Peace :)