My Tyler

Chapter 12

Yesterday was the best, tyler got really into it, he's super fun to fangirl with too. We were laughing and theorizing the whole day not even breaking for lunch or dinner, like we still ate them but we didn't stop talking.

I'm in the lounge at the moment staring out the window. Lost in thought. I was thinking about what's going to happen when I see mother again. If I had it my way I will never see her again, when tyler burst through the door, looking incredibly confused. "Tyler whats wrong?" I call out.

"I want to leave, I can't trust that man, any man, they're all bad," it says. It would be bad if i said 'amen to that' wouldn't it. Ok winter, come on think of something supportive.

"Don't say that, it's not true, you're not that bad." he looks at me with that face saying 'not what i mean and you know that' jezz touchy. "Look half the population is male you can't run from them."

"Watch me" Tyler rages. He looks at the window, shit please don't try that. He starts the aggressive walk towards it.

"We've made it this far...kid." I start. He stops, without turning he looks at me. Here goes nothing. "Am I the only one I know, Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat

Shadows will scream that I'm alone, But I know, we've made it this far, kid

And I will say that we should take a day to break away

From all the pain our brain has made, the game is not played alone

And I will say that we should take a moment and hold it

And keep it frozen and know that life has a hopeful undertone"

Tyler turns it face me now, together, we can beat what lies in his mind. When I start the next paragraph he joins and together we sing. We sing for our lives! "And I will say that we should take a day to break away

From all the pain our brain has made, the game is not played alone

And I will say that we should take a moment and hold it

And keep it frozen and know that life has a hopeful undertone

Am I the only one I know

Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat

Shadows will scream that I'm alone

But I know, we've made it this far, kid

Made it this far

Made it this far"

We finish. Staring right into each other's eyes. knowing that we are both fighting. We have to. There is no break for us. We have to keep fighting. We may lose sometimes but we must continue to fight. Our lives depend on it.

The moment ends. And Tyler sits against the wall. For it was just a moment. They come and go as they please. And this one has ended. Tyler begins to try. His shoulder rise and fall much quicker than normal. He honestly has the worst cry, but not because it's ugly, no, because it breaks your heart.

I always feel useless when people cry, I don't know how to make it better. Mother never cared when I cried, she would leave me alone or tell me that I look stupid for crying and to suck it up. So that's the only approach I know how to use. Somehow I don't think that's the approach for tyler, he needs a softer hand.

Amber. That's it. I walk over to tyler and rub his back knowing there is nothing I can say to make it better. After a bit, he becomes comfortable with me next to him, so i take the moment to call for amber.

Amber walks over and sits in front of tyler. She takes his hands, slowly rising tylers heads till their eyes meet, "I know what you feel, after a man hurt me, every time I looked at a male I got scared, flashback of that night followed me for years, but one day my mother told me, 'don't let him take one more second of your life' I had to take back my life, I had to relearn who I was, how to make friends, how to feel safe again. But you know what, I did it, and one day you will too." tyler is touched, the tears lighten and they hug. Tyler need that, good old amber knowing exactly what to do.

They finish hugging, both feeling better than before. Then will all watch sponge bob, tyler got really excited because he remembered what it was and the characters. At least that hits that he had some form of a childhood.