Addiction

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This chapter is going to have some use of drugs and such. So if you're easily triggered, I wouldn't suggest you read it. 

Harry's POV

They didn't understand. They didn't understand the pressure of being in your senior year and being on a university level team that could potentially make it to the big leagues.

"Forget them man," Ethan scoffed, sniffing a line, "you don't need them anyways. You're better off."

"And my girlfriend?" I frowned. He smirked and winked.

"I can find you ten more babes that can bed you better than she can, guaranteed," he replied. I chuckled, shaking my head.

"No," I said, "I don't care if I have to say goodbye to my old friends but she is the one thing I'm never going to let go. I just need to figure out how to get her back."

"Jesus, you're acting like you broke up."

"Fucking feels like it," I replied.

I leaned back against the brick wall of some warehouse we were sitting against and sighed as Ethan pulled out a smoke and lit it, taking a long puff before handing it to me. I bit my lip and took it, feeling a bit reluctant but as soon as the smell hit my lungs I had already brought the stick to my lips and had taken two, three puffs before I could stop myself.

It just made me feel so good.

So mellow.

So calm.

I sighed and leaned back, looking down at Ethan who smirked up at me.

"Feel better?"

I nodded with a small smile.

"Loads."

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I groaned as I plopped down on my mattress, face first into my pillows. My mom knocked gently on my door and I frowned, looking over at the clock before I shoved my face back into my pillow again so she wouldn't see my eyes.

"Harry?"

"Yeah," I mumbled. I felt the bed sink a tad as she sat down next to me.

"Where do you keep going these days?" She asked, "you're barely home and I know you're not with Jordan or Mya because I've called them."

"I've been hanging out with my team, mum," I said. I turned my face to the side but kept my eyes shut so my mother wouldn't see my eyes. I felt the bed sink as she sat down next to me and soon felt her fingers brush through my hair. I sighed and revelled in the soothing feeling it brought me.

"You can't ignore your old friends either, one of them is your girlfriend," she said. I sighed again.

"I'm not ignoring my girlfriend though."

"Aren't you?" she asked, "because not once have I heard you say 'I'm gonna spend the night at Mya's', or 'I'm going over to Mya's', it's always been Ethan."

"What's your point, mom?" I asked, getting slightly annoyed. 

"Just don't forget who your true friends are, honey. These guys have only known you for a couple of months and I understand it's important to have new friends and branch out, but don't leave your old ones behind in the process."

I said nothing and continued to lay there on my bed. My mom waited for a moment before telling me that dinner would be ready in a bit before she left my room. I sighed and sat up, immediately regretting it due to the small feeling of Vertigo that rushed through me. I sighed and leaned over to my nightstand drawer, pulling it open to reveal the small bag of powder I had stashed in there. 

I honestly didn't know if what I was doing was worth growing distant with Jordan and Mya, but it made me feel good. Ethan knew how to handle the pressure of being on a university team and if this is what helped handle the pressure than I wanted to do it too. It also helped me think less about school and work and balancing everything out.

I felt less stressed when I did it. 

I sighed and tore open the package and took a textbook from the floor of my room. Placing it on my lap, I tapped out a little bit of the substance onto the surface of my book and reached for my wallet before pulling out my debit card and lining the powder up properly. I smirked, feeling myself get excited for what I was about to do and sighed before continuing in my goal. 

I could feel the euphoric effects rush through me almost immediately and soon felt the familiar sensitiveness of my eyes to the lights so I reached over to my lamps and turned them off. I laid back in my bed and relaxed, feeling the feeling of sleepiness and hungriness also fade away. I simply laid there; numb but alert as I found myself going through all of my thoughts. Except this time, when I was thinking, there was no panic or doubt as to what I'd do; I was just thinking, but calmly.

Can you see why I like doing this?

Because I can.

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Sorry for the wait. I had dance shows all week this week and then work today. But I'm glad I got in another update for the week. I'll try to update again!

Hope you enjoy,

S.