Save Me(Depressed!Izaya x Shizuo)

Izaya 💤

My eyes flutter open and I see a light blue almost white ceiling above me.

/Where am I?/

I tried to move my body but they were too heavy. It felt like I hadn't move them in months.

After a constant struggle I finally managed to pull myself up into a sitting position. Well kind of. I was up enough that I could see the whole room but I wasn't fully sitting up.

/What is going on with my body. It almost seems like it forgot how to move/

I look around and notice I'm in a hospital with white walls on each side. I looked over at the door and saw it was closed but i could see a figure of a person outside the door. The faint smell of cigarette smoke hinted at the idea of the person being Shizuo.

/He's probably waiting for a perfect chance to kill me. Honestly I'm surprised I'm not dead.../

I saw a little table next to the bed with nothing on it. No food or water or anything except a card from Shinra and my knife, the one I loaned to that yellow scarf kid.

/Thanks kid. Now if it's just a normal guard out there, taking him down will be easy. And if it's Shizuo...I'll feel a little safer with it./

I reach out and grab the knife but it looked like I just threw my arm at the table. It slammed into it causing my body to jurk slightly and some of my hair fall next to me.

/What the hell. My hair was never this long. True it dose grow kinda fast but there is not way it could have grown that much...Wait...no. no no no no no./

I fling myself to the end of the bed and grab the clipboard with my information on it. My eyes scanned over my obvious info like my name and age before it landed on my diagnosis.

-Izaya Orihara. 2 year coma patient.-

I let the clip board fall out of my hands as my balance of the bed also fails causing both me and the clipboard to collide with the ground. I lay on my back and look up at the ceiling again.

/This can't be real. I wanted to die. I wanted the world to let me go not move on without me. A whole year and a half of my humans changing and moving on without there god. And Shizuo.../

My thoughts were interrupted by the door being flung open and I turned my head to see Shizuo standing at the door looking down at me. His angry face melted into relief and surprise at the sight of me. An expression I never thought I would see on his face, even less, it being directed at me. He open his mouth but words didn't come out untill finally a small line of words were breathed out, just audible enough for me to hear.

"Izaya... you're finally awake"

I was kinda happy that Shizuo was treating me like this but I'm very confused as to why. It's extremely out of character for him and just kinda weird. He shook his head and put back on his normal stoic face before walking over to me and picking my up bridal style before laying me on the bed.

"Idiot. I know that when you have missed a whole year without watching -your humans- makes you kinda anxious but you have been asleep for 2 years, you can't put that much strain on your body immediately."

He sits me up while lecturing me like Shinra would. After he got me up he leaned over me causing my face to heat a bit and I leaned back a little. I felt his hand on mine and my eyes looked at our hands then back up at his eyes that were locked on mine. He pulled back with a chuckle and held up the knife that I didn't even notice he grabbed.

"And you're not gonna need this. But that reaction makes me think..."

He got quite as he turned around and put the knife in his pocket. He was looking at the ground and turned his head so he wasn't really looking at me but I could see his face.

"That what you said back then...was really true..."

I was confused for a moment before I remember what the last thing I said the the monster when I thought I was gonna die.

-"Shizuo I think...I'm in love with you"-

My face exploded in a bright red and i looked over at the window.

"Ya...it was true. I mean why would I lie when I was about to die"

Shizuo turned all the way around to face me with a confused face with a touch of anger.

"But why?"

I looked back at him, furious.

/If your gonna demand my honesty you don't get to judge my reasoning./

"I'm not gonna apologize for how I feel. I love you Shizuo and there is no amount of yelling at me or hurting me that is going to change that fact! Trust me...I tried"

Shizuo stormed over to me and grabbed my by the collar and picked me up, bringing me close enough that I could smell him. Coffee and Cigarettes.

"But why did you try to change it! Why would you try and take your life over a feeling! It's as you said, you can't change it and if you kill yourself it's not gonna make it any better. All you're gonna do is cause the person who you fell for to blame themselves for 2 years!"

Shizuo screamed at me and let me go immediately after. And as I saw his back face me I realized why he's so mad.

/He's not mad because I have feelings for him. He's mad because I made him feel guilty and I made him worry...so he really dose care../

I smile at his back.

----------------
Cute!!!!
Omg this is gonna be like a really sad story but I'll start with some cute shizaya stuff.
But remember this is gonna be depressing and supper sad.
Just be prepared for the pain.
Anyway! Thanks for reading and hope you liked it.
~HQ