14 poems before this and i couldn't get it right,
i tried to paint up another image of me i wish i had but goddamn it i lost sight,
ever since i started this i've been at my lowest,
tried to let go of some angst but all this has been my slowest.
i'm just not selfish,
i've been losing precious tears because sometimes i'm no longer there for myself,
i'm just not selfish,
started pulling my own hair out just to feel a bit of myself,
i'm just not selfish,
5 years of doing it on my own and now i'm so scared of being all alone,
i'm just not selfish.
late 2018 and i'm thinking its all almost gone,
and '19 is what i've always been waiting for,
i have a new life, i have new friends, i have a sixth sense, i have freedom,
but what if its just not what i'm waiting for?
another acrylic painting i want to buy four,
i need to stop living in a fiction world,
lord can someone give me some strength, that aching word.
i'm just not selfish,
i've been thinking of losing all my friends,
i'm just not selfish,
in fact i always promise myself to be a little petty but im always right on whenever you need,
i'm just not selfish,
and recently holding my breath doesn't feel so heavy,
i'm just not selfish.
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Selfish | خود خواه
PoesíaFor many years, I believe the word Selfish has been tainted by people into thinking its egotistical and narcissistic, but on my 6th poetry collection, I bring light to a new side of Selfishness whilst merging it with my Persian Culture.
