after the kissing booth

chapter 2

The conversation with Lee made me think more.i wondered if I was lying to everyone. Had our love ran out.everytime he was coming back I was excited for him to but this time I didn't care.how could he be so selfish?was he hiding something?I knew seeing him in person would help me decide if I still loved him it was just a matter of waiting.i knew the one person I needed to talk to was lee but something made me not want to.i wondered if he would give me false advice if he knew me and Noah would break up because of it.

"Hey buddy"I said to my brother as I walked downstairs.he smiled and I went straight to the stove to grab a piece of bacon to eat on the go.i rushed out the door trying to avoid my dad"bye love you"I yelled before walking out the door quickly.i jumped in my car and pulled away but as I turned the corner I parked to think.i wanted to talk to lee so badly because I needed his advice and I had to trust that he wouldn't hurt me on purpose.noah was coming back next weekend so I had to figure things out I needed another opinion.

I pulled up to the Flynn house jumping out of my car heading up to the steps of the door and walking in.i was quickly greeted by June "hi honey lee is in his room"she said with her motherly smile I hugged her and ran upstairs."marco"I said waiting to here polo in my besties voice.i walked towards the balcony to check for lee there but all the sudden I heard a  loud shout that practically made me jump off the balcony."ugh......your such an ass lee"I yelled at him."I know so anyway we swimming"he said with a chuckle."Yeah I guess I have to talk to you" I said nervously but before he could answer I ran to Noah's room to grab my bikini.after changing I ran back to Lee's room.i turned the corner to his room and walked in."ready"he said sounding really hyped up he was looking at the balcony."no freaking way"i said knowing what he wanted to do."Oh come on don't be such a bum"I looked at him giving him a dirty look.i sighed and locked fingers with him we ran as fast as we Could and as we reached the end of the balcony we lifted our legs and jumped and it was pretty cool I could see what he liked about it.we hit the water hard which kinda hurt.

we played around for a while before i decided i would talk to him. i starred at lee swimming for a while before i braced myself for the conversation.

(bold print is elle talking)

lee i dont think i love noah anymore

elle....

i mean i do but it just things are different how could he be so selfish

elle i thin...

seeing him in person could change things i mean i know i love him but what if what hes done to me makes it stop 

elle i understand he was selfish but i think what he said was true he doesn't handle emotional things well you know that

it doesn't matter lee i spent two years hating myself and wondering what i had done

elle  noah isn't worth hating yourself your too good for that

i know its just he is the love of my life and i know that and i know when he gets here i will love him but how could he hurt me that badly for two years he even avoided his family as much as possible to avoid me

elle noah was selfish and he owes you an answer and i hope he gives you one but i know noah loves you and i know he hurts everyday for what he did he knows he hurt you endlessly for 2 years barely texting you being distant on calls he knows what that did and it hurts him when he comes back i know hell make it better but the one thing you need to worry about is if you still love him because if you dont you need to tell him before both of you get hurt worst

i love noah but what he did hurt me and the pain of what he did makes loving him hurt mainly because he gave me no real explanation besides he hates goodbyes

elle noah loves you period and i know you love him too so i think that you should get his answer and move on from it because you have so many plans a whole life planned out and you would be throwing away a life time over two years

yah i think you right i needed that thank you

i hugged him tight after releasing him from my grip i jumped out of the pool walked over and sat on the blue and white lawn chair and layed down. for the rest of the time i was at the flynn house i replayed lees words and couldn't help but smirk at how helpful he was even though he could have used that to split us up.i headed home and went straight to sleep finally feeling ok with the situation. apart of me was willing to forget about it all even without a answer but i knew i deserved one.

(ok so in the next chapter some confrontation will go down so kinda excited to see how it goes)