truth or dare (jachary)

Chapter 25

jack 🍜

anger boiled inside of me as zach broke down his walls and opened up about his parents.

my heart shattered in my chest as it rockily dropped in my stomach as i realized the hard truth.

it's my fault. its all my fucking fault.

i outed him to his parents and the entire school, who, by the way, now think that skittles means he's gay and are now being homophobic towards him.

i ruined my almost-relationship and possibly this precious boy's entire life.

i furrowed my brows as i pulled him closer to my chest and wrapped my arms protectively around him.

it broke me, how he looked me in the bloodshot eyes and said "it kills me, but i'd rather be just friends with a guy i love than be an eternity away from you. plus, we're graduating soon and ..."

he trailed off and sniffled. "maybe we'll meet again one day. when we're older, our minds less hectic. and maybe, just maybe, i'll be right for you and you'll be right for me. but right now..."

he sounded like a fucking pinterest quote. i blinked back some more tears and tried my best to keep breathing steadily.

my mind was racing and my heart beat out of my chest. no. this can't be happening. i have to do something.

my voice came out shaky, but i was completely sure of myself in this moment. "no."

i leaned into him and snaked my arm up to run my hand through his hair.

"i'm not giving up on us, zach. not again. there has to be something we can do. we-"

he cut me off. "i can't risk it. i can't-"

i was desparate. "i love you, zach. please."

"NO" he half shouted as he got up and ran out jonahs front door.

and it was gone. all of it. all of my life, the boy i loved. my everything. he's annoying. he's hilarious. he drives me crazy, he's out of his mind, but he's all i need. and he's gone.

i heard stirring in the living room and two seconds later jonah appeared in the doorway.

he looked between me and the door a couple of times with sympathy before going to find zach.

my head sunk into my hands.

fuck.