A collection of thoughts

To the boy i shouldn't love

It's hard to talk to you and suppress my feelings. we agreed, but i lied. seeing you makes me so happy and i haven't had that in a long time. i am so thankful you are in my life. i just have to love you from afar. pretend like the thoughts running through my head are not about you. pretend that when someone mentions you name i don't get excited. pretend when someone asked me how i feel about you i say the opposite of the truth. i shouldn't love you. i shouldn't feel this way. i shouldn't be so into you. but i can't help feeling this way. i only wonder if you feel the same.

i am sorry for ever loving you...