A collection of thoughts

Tired of It All

i guess i am just tired of it all. tired from the constant desire to be loved. tired of the need to be the perfect student. tired of being compared to one another constantly. tired of never being good enough. tired of wondering what's next. i need a pause in my life. a moment when everything is still and i can just rest. it feels as though i need to prove something to everyone. prove that in this race i can at least be second. the thing of it is, i end up tripping. falling into this dark abyss waiting to hit the ground. looking at everything that has led me to where i am now, and it does not make sense. i constantly worry that i am too overbearing or annoying. that i am never going to reach my goals. that i will never be the one someone can see themselves with. so for now i just fill my head with music and thoughts late at night. just as i am doing right now.