What Labels Cause

After Feelings

I wake up and check my phone. 10 notifications and it's 3:45 a.m. Shit. I look up at Cain sleeping peacefully. I try pushing out of his grasp but he pulls me tighter. I sigh and slip out underneath his arms. I throw my clothes on and run my fingers through my hair before running into the bathroom to manage my smeared makeup. My phone goes off.

Lexus: "Mercedes, where the f are u?!!!!! Moms flipping shit!"

Asher 1:10 p.m : Mercedes dude moms like flipping the fuck out.

I have 6 more from Lexus and 2 from my mom.

Mother: "MERCEDES! Where the fuck are you! I had an important dinner!"

Mother:" Get ur ass home now!

Classy, right?

I call Lexus.

"Mercedes!" She screams into the phone.

"Shh!" I cringe.

"I told mom you had a project with Kalie and that you'd be late."

"Who's Kalie?! And I'm on my way now, we fell asleep."

"Uh she's my history partner..she sits behind you." I waved my hand and hang up. I pick up the extra stuff and run out the door, missing the nosy maid.

"Welcome home, honey bunny! Now where the hell were you?!" My sister demands when I walk through the door. She shines her phone flashlight in my eyes.

"Cain's house?" I say meekly. I cover my eyes and walk up to my room. She's hot on my heels.

"And?!"

"We worked on our project?" I open my doors to find my balcony doors open with a nice breeze.

"No way, that's not all. You're glowing and you look so happy and peaceful. Not that it's a bad thing but this couldn't come out just from a project!" I strip out of my clothes and go into my shower.

"Really, it's not a big deal." I roll my eyes just to throw her off. It doesn't work. Her goofy smile is contagious.

"Please! Please!" She begs me opening the glass door. She better not come in!

"Get out and let me shower, then I'll tell you." She squeals and runs out plopping on my bed. I take a long shower, brush my teeth and put on some pjs. Walking out I see her still awake on Instagram.

"Spill!" She throws her phone down to give me her full attention.

"We.. Did it." I say slowly and carefully.

"You had sex?" She raises her eyebrow.

"No..well yes. But it was more than sex, like I can't explain it. We agreed it was beautiful and he spooned me. And lex I just can't.." I rush out. I avoid her eye contact.

She stares at me, her jaw slack. "Like..you guys made love?" She questions me.

I look at her and tears start to form, "I...I don't love.. I can't. It felt.. I don't think so.." I shake my head.

"Mercedes.. you're crying and feeling emotions, it's okay. I promise." She hugs me tightly as the tears fall again. She knows a litte bit about him and his destruction. My mothers destruction. I shake my head and hug her limply.

"Sometimes you need to open your heart and let old wounds heal," She whispers before letting go and getting up. "Night Mer, Love you." I give her a tight smile. It's hard for me to form those words again. She hasn't said those words to me since that night.

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I didn't get any sleep. I wanted to get some sleep but my mind kept wandering. I didn't realize Elsa came in my room.