Block 6ix9ine

what freedom

A few weeks had passes since Danny got out of prison. He had since become a father to a baby girl names Saraiyah, so he was alittle busy but hes was still around. Me and him had been keeping everything low key. We didnt want people to know about us just yet, plus we didnt want to rush nothing. The only two people that knew were Markus and Sara.

Danny was spending a few nights a week at his baby mamas so he could help out as well as working the streets. His baby girl was so cute. I thought she looked so much like her mom, i was thankful she was ok about usbdating because i didnt want to intrude on there lives. Danny said that she was gonna be trouble when she grew up like him. I laughed at that, he has no idea.

I was waiting on Danny coming back, it was getting late and i was getting tired. He always suposed to do a few runs, check in at Saras and then come here but he never did come back. I was lying in my underwear reading a book when i decided to just to to bed. If he was coming he would have been here by now or he wpuld have called. I got up and turned my light off and then got into bed. Just as i was getting comfy my bedroom door opened.

"Babe? You awake?" He asked.

"Yeah, where have you been?" I asked.

"Saraiyah wouldn't settle. I stayed till she fell asleep, Sara just got her down." he said taking off his clothes. He got into bed in his boxers and pulled me into him.

"Sorry im late" he mumbled pushing his face into my shoulders.

"Its ok, being a father always comes first Danny, but just call next time. I worry about you." i said. He smiled and kissed me as i wrapped an arm arouns his waist. We kissed for a while, we hadnt has sex since that time a few months ago.

I missed having him around and even when he was here i could tell his mind was always elsewhere. I pulled him over so he was on top of me. We kissed more passionetly as i moved to pull my pants down. Danny stopped me.

"Slow down" he said getting of me. I sighed.

"Whats going on Danny?" I asked running my hand through my hair.

"nothing, im just not in the mood for this" he said.

"You're notnin the mood?" I asked offended. "Are you fucking with me?" I asked. He sighed.

"I got alot going on right now Sineta" he growled at me.

"I get that but even when your with me you're not here. Youre only here 3 days a week so when do we have time?" I asked angrily.

"We have time now dont we?" He said. "I just dont wanna do nothin', im tired a'ite" he said running his hands down his face.

"You sound like a fucking old man Danny." I said pulling a t shirt on. I guess the underwear was a waste of time.

"Yeah, well try running around slanging dope all day, then goin' and dealing with a 5 week old baby for 5 hours crying and then coming home and always arguing with someone whos suposed to fucking care about you." He shouted at me.

"I do care about you Danny but we never got time to do anything. Its Sara that had the kid not me" i said back.

"You know what Sineta, you're really fucking selfish sometimes, imma crash on the couch tonight" he said grabbing a pillow.

"Good maybe the couch will get more action that me!!!" I shouted as he left.

"FUCK YOU" he shouted as he slammed the door. I slumped back in bed before i got up getting dressed. I got my shoes on and left my room. Danny eyed me as i flung my jumper on.

"Where the fuck you going?" He asked from the couch.

"OUT" i shouted leaving.

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I ended up at Freedos house. We were smoking, drinking and talking about childhood memories. I grew up around alot of guys, most of my honies were kids thats parents were in the gabg too, incliding Freedo and Theif. Everyone thinks i kiled him, honestly they all been acting sketchy around ne lately. Everyone thinks hes dead and as far as im concerned he is. He betrayed us all, including me.

We lay on the couch talking about when we were younger before my dad went to prison when he used to pay us to do stupid shit for him. Who would have thought now were doing it with kids around our block now?.

"Remember that time ya old man payed us 100 bucks just to slap the shit out of that hobo that used to hang round your block?" He said. I laughed.

"The one that robbed Markus? I remember, damn he ain't ever come back after that" i said sipping a beer. I was thinking back to that day, i remember that wasnt even the worst thing my dad ever payed us to do. This life, it isnt for everyone. People look in from the outside and see us as thugs, violent gang members, drug dealers and all round bad people. Were not though, were doing what we gotta do to survive. If Papi wasn't a blood then now i would have no family.

My momma died when me and markus were babies. She died of cancer. If papi wasn't in this gang, he wouldn't even have had the money to help her see markus's first birthday.

We would have been poor. Alot of peoole around here would have been poor had it not been for Papi helping them out. Now hes living the rest of his life behind bars but he did what he had to do to protect his own.

"You seen him recently?" Freedo asked. I shook my head.

"Nah, i dont visit him anymore. Just write to him" i said.

"How come?" He asked.

"Its too hard to sit there and not be able to talk to him about alotnof shit i want to, knowing theres pigs all around us. I visit him a few times a year now but Markus visits every week." I said.

Freedo nodded. I thought back to visiting Danny in prison. It was so hard having to see him behind that glass beaten. I missed him, i knew i should go home and talk to him but for some reason i wanted him to see how much of an asshole he had been.

I get he has alot goin' on right now but he was practically ignoring my existance. Maybe i over reacted, Maybe i just loved him so much that i needed him to be around more offten. I dont know but i did know we had to talk about it.