It's been a week since Ashton spent the night at my house. We've been spending every free minute we have with each other. When we aren't together we are texting. I sometimes forget all about Luke and how he is gone. Spending time with Ashton makes me forget. He makes me happy again. At first I was completely against starting any type if relationship with him. I knew Luke wouldn't have liked it when he was alive so I should stay away. But now that I've gotten a taste of how I feel around him I can't let him go. I mean we are only friends but I can't help but picture something more. I grab my phone from my bed dialing Ashton's number.
"Roni" he answers almost immediately.
"Ash can you come over?" I ask laying down on my bed.
"Yeah are you okay?"
"Fine. I just miss you." I sigh.
He laughs quietly. "I miss you too. I'll be right over."
I hang up the phone waiting patiently for Ashton's arrival. I wait about 5 minutes and my door opens. I turn and there stands Ashton leaning against my door frame.
"Can we cuddle?" I say. He doesn't reply he just pulls back my covers and climbs into my bed. I get in next to him and he quickly tangles our legs together. We've been doing this a lot, cuddling. It's comforting. We talk about everything mainly but sometimes we just lay in silence.
"Roni I like you." Ashton grabs my hands.
"I like you too Ash."
"No but I really like you."
"I know me too."
"No but I like you more than a friend."
"Oh." I sigh.
"It's ok if you don't like me too" He sits up rubbing his face.
"No Ash it's not that." I tug on his arm. "I just am afraid of what Luke would think if he was alive. Ashton I want to but I really don't know if we-" Ashton grabs the back of my neck and places his lips on mine. Our lips are moving in sync and my entire body is on fire. In that moment nothing mattered, just they way my hands were tangled in his hair. The way his lips moved with mine. The way his hands made the skin on my hips burn. Nothing mattered in that moment but us.
This is short but my Ashton feels are too much to handle. Kay bye. Smile.
