My Lovely. (Jalbert)

Chapter 12

(A/N: before I begin this chapter, let me just say in the last chapter Jake DID NOT rape Albert. I would never put such things in my fan fictions. I was getting tons of comments asking that and I just wanted to clarify that it was not supposed to be taken in such a way.)

I woke up with a striking headache pounding away at my head. My eyes fluttered open and I immediately noticed I wasn't in my room. I rubbed my face with my hand and turned over to find Jake knocked out beside me.

I squinted my eyes in deep thought trying to recall what had happened last night. The last thing I could remember was making soup.

I noticed Jake shirtless and only in boxers. I noticed myself in the same position.

Did we....?

"Jake!" I yelled shaking him awake.

He groaned and turned over to his side.

"Jake!" I accidentally pushed him off the bed which made him wake up at least.

"Ow what the fuck." He stood up and gripped his head in pain.

"What happened last night?" I asked covering my chest with the bed sheet.

"What?" He rubbed his eyes.

"I'm just gonna...take a shower..." I got up from my bed and into my room. I walked into the bathroom and turned on the lights.

I noticed in the mirror I had...bruises? No, hickeys. I saw I had them all over my neck and collar bone. They went all the way down to my waist.

Why couldn't I remember anything?

I got into the shower and turned on the cold water. I felt the cold beads hit my skin and roll off my body onto the shower floor. I couldn't help but think about what happened last night. There has to be some way to remember.

After a couple minutes of standing in cold water I got out and changed into some fresh clothes. I took one last look and rubbed a hickey with my hand.

I walked out of my room and over to Jake's. I knocked on the door and heard a faint "come in."

I opened the door and found Jake staring at his computer with absolute awe on his face.

"I think I know what happened last night..." he said looking over at me, his face was pale and looked as thought he had just seen something that can't be unseen.

I took the chair next to him and he restarted the video.

(30 minutes later.)

Oh.

My.

God.

I will never un-see what I had just witnessed. The video was pretty much Jake and I making out but before anything happened he told me to take a few drinks. 

I did as told and we got in bed and just went all in. It was slow at first but the speed picked up rather quickly. Both Jake and I stared at the jaw-dropping events.

I could see his hand going in all sorts of places which felt uncomfortable to watch. I focused my attention off of the video and looked over at Jake's lap.

I was relieved to see that this had no impact on his preference but even so I could see he was uncomfortable.

"W-Why did you record this?" I asked breaking the thick silence between us.

"I was so drunk I don't know." He replied keeping his eye on the video.

(About an hour or so later.)

Jake and I hadn't talked since we saw the video. A thick tension had grown upon us and it wasn't going to be cleared soon. I felt as though this was my fault. But then again, it was going to happen sooner or later right?

I had finished recording videos and headed down stairs for a snack. I just grabbed an apple but once I closed the fridge door I heard Jake coming down the stairs. I panicked and hid under the counter hoping he wouldn't see me.

"I can see your foot." He said tugging off my sock and laughing slightly.

"Oh heh just uh dropped something." I scratched the back of my neck as I struggled to find an excuse.

"What did you drop?" He asked eyeing me suspiciously.

"My uhm...contacts!" I don't even where glasses what was I thinking.

"You don't wear contacts Albert." He said shaking his head but laughing at my stupidity.

I stayed silent and looked down at the floor.

"Did you enjoy it?" He asked. I looked back up at him.

"Enjoy what?" I asked already knowing what he meant.

"In the video...you looked like you enjoyed it..." he said looking sort of let down which was expected.

"We were drunk Jake..." I said. I kind of had a feeling where this was going.

"Let's try again." Before I could even question him, he leaned in and pressed his lips against mine. My eyes grew wide as I watch him kiss me ever so gently.

"Now how did that feel?" He said pulling away. Both our cheeks turned a blood red as I blankly stared up at him.

"Not enough? Let's try again." He was going all in and forcing me to go in. I couldn't help but just stare at him blankly.

"Jake...stop..." I said pushing him away. He frowned and looked at the floor as did I.

"What if I went in first?" I said. I wasn't even thinking, just saying.

I leaned in slowly. I closed my eyes and felt his warm breathing on my face. I slowly pressed my lips against him. I immediately sunk into into his chest as he gripped my waist and pulled me in closer. His touch was so gentle and smooth I couldn't help but move faster and faster.

I pushed him up against the counter feeling his hairs through my finger tips. I lost all ego and began to move down onto his neck. I kissed him so gently and softly with him slowly pulling me in closer and closer.

My hand made it's way up his shirt to feel his soft silk skin. I completely gave into this. I don't know what's going on. Do I like Jake? I don't understand. I thought I was straight but here I am making out with my best friend in my very own kitchen.

I pulled away catching my breath and train of thought back. I could see he had been craving this for some time now. Something about this just felt so right. But I wasn't sure of myself. This is like the first time I've ever questioned my sexuality before. It's so frustrating and doesn't make sense.

"What's the matter?" He whispered softly making me completely melt inside.

I myself didn't even know. What was the matter? These new found feelings were so confusing and made me feel like throwing up. My mind was rushing with thoughts and questions for myself. Nothing seemed right anymore. It was as if everything was so frustrating and confusing. What is happening?

"Albert?" Jake said breaking my thoughts away into mere blank spots.

For the first time I saw Jake as not just a person but as a love interest. My best friend. The man I've known for years is now what I could call a crush.

"I don't understand." I held my head and sat down on the couch. Jake sat next to me and began rubbing my back which completely cleared away all my thoughts.

"What don't you understand?" He asked.

"This is the first time I'm seeing you more as just a friend. I'm questioning my sexuality in so many ways. Everything is so confusing and I just can't-" Jake placed his index finger onto my lips.

"Shhh, you'll find your way. For now, just cuddle with me and forget about the world." I did as told and cuddled up to him sinking my face in his warm chest.

A/N: DOOPA DOODA DOOBADEEDOO I SENSE GAY AND IT IS GREAT! Anyway, have a nice day! ~ Sam