Chapter 19

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(Hi! Thank you for everyone who is reading! 💕 Also I was wondering are the chapters too long? I feel like I'm being annoying when I make them long. But I have school and just need time to fill while I'm busy. Lmk! But have fun with this chapter 😏 remember vote and comment!)

(Alexis)

It took me a second to realize what was going on, but I could still feel his lips against mine. Our lips moved in sync together and it just flowed naturally. My mind had had so many thoughts rushing and I couldn't keep up, so I just managed to relax and go with whatever was happening. He noticed I relaxed a little before kissing me more deeply.

The kisses went from one small kiss; transitioning into little pecks, placing soft sweet kisses right on my lips until it turned into deep passionate kisses...he gently cupped my face with one of his hands and pulled my face a little bit closer as we kissed. I still couldn't wrap my head around the fact that we we're even kissing right now. The way he was taking his time with me and kissing me softly, it was too hard to pull away. It was just the best experience I've ever felt in my life. My heart was so racing fast, I felt so comfortable and at peace with him. He was being gentle with me and kissing me softly but not holding back at all. And with that; I rested one of my hands on his chest. I could feel his heart beating just as fast as mine was which was insane. Getting a little curious my hand found its way to rubbing on his chest a little bit as we continued.

Feeling his hand reaching down to one of my legs, and slowly draping my leg over his waist, He leaned back a little and it caused me to lean forward a bit not wanting to break the kiss. I slowly lowered my hand a little bit to get more comfortable but my hand was now resting right on top of the waistband of his sweatpants. He pulled me closer to him until the point where I was straddling his lap almost..

Fuck he was a good kisser, but it was like a switch turned on in my head and my guilty conscious hit me like a ton of bricks

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Fuck he was a good kisser, but it was like a switch turned on in my head and my guilty conscious hit me like a ton of bricks. I had so many thoughts going a hundred miles a minute and I just couldn't keep up.

He's your best friend. You can't do this. What if he doesn't really like you like that? This is probably all he wants from you...

Just so many thoughts...but it was enough to that cause me to pull away from the kiss. I was breathing hard right when I pulled away; his breathing was just as heavy as mine and I noticed his chest going up and down slightly as he tried to catch his breath. I looked down at him since I was still kind of on top of him. He was looking up at me but then at my lips again, that's when he started licking his lips and going into what seemed like a daze. But he finally made eye contact with me.

Noticing the awkward position I was in, I felt kind of embarrassed after that. I kissed my best friend! I didn't mean to! Well I did because he kissed me but I didn't mean to kiss him back! Fuck! I did though! What is he gonna think of me now. I honestly was so stunned by what just happened that I didn't even realize I was still on top of him.

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