Love Loss

Chapter 4

Three weeks have gone by and I have barely left my room, I cannot stop myself from thinking about him, he may be a lycan, but he was a beautiful one. I began to start hitting myself everytime I thought of his beauty, he was a lycan, that I cannot change, but why was he beautiful too me? Why did we share a moment so serene? At one point I felt as though I had been lifted off the floor and carried towards him. The thought of what happened in that moment had made me giddy.

Then my mind flitted back too the lycan who had stolen Cooper, it infurriated me that some mutt thought he could intimidate me and use my dog as bait. I wanted him to be here now, just so I could take my anger out on him.

My thoughts were interrupted as somebody knocked on my door.

"Zara, you haven't fed in almost a month, you want me to have more control, but do you really think starving yourself is going too help you keep your control? Please, I know i've messed up alot but I don't want to fuck things up this time." I wanted too forgive her, I really did, but I couldn't. I decided too get up and open the door.

"You stay here, i'm not having a repeat of this, somebody will be home at all times, and before you fuck this up, Cooper doesn't count. I'll be back in an hour or two." As I walked past her, I saw her face change. From hope, too dissappointment and a little pain.

It hurt me too see her in pain but, I couldn't find it in myself to forgive her. She has ruined my life too many times. I have never had too run, this is my third relocation since I turn Mina, I do care about her, but she makes it too hard.

As I walk along the docks I see somebody sat at the end, as I walk closer i realise something's wrong. I am less than 6 foot away from them, yet I cannot hear a heartbeat, cannot feel their body heat, cannot tell if they're male or female, I cannot hear them breathing. I decide not to go closer and begin too walk backwards. As I do I feel someone against my back, they feel hot against my back. Before I get a chance too turn away, I hear a slight whimper.

I turn quickly, to see the beautiful white lycan infront of me, I jump slightly, until I see the pain in his face, he whimpers softly once more. It's then that I smell it, he's bleeding.

"I can help you, follow me, please." My voice is still jittery as I say it, but he follows anyway. As we are about too pass my boat, I hear people around the corner,

"Are you sure it went this way?"

"Yeah, it definately went this way, I saw it jump down from the roof." The footsteps get closer too the corner, I can tell he's starting to panic.

"Quick get on the boat, and get down the stairs, quickly." He attempts to protest, but something in his face changes when I grab his hand. I don't understand what it is, but now i'm feeling an urgency too hide him, too help him, too stop him being killed. His eyes soften towards me, I spin my head too the corner as I realise we're almost out of time, so I pull him onto the boat and usher him down the stairs and into the bedroom. As I walk back up to the deck I close every door behind me.

When I get on deck I see the men just running around the corner, I recognize one of them, he was stood with the men outside the exotic dance club. I had barely noticed him but he was stood quietly behind the rest. It's then I realise that wasn't the only time I had seen him. A sadistic smile crept onto his face as he spoke too another one of the men.

He was the lycan who had stolen Cooper and killed all those people. I ran as fast as I could up too the wheel and turn on the engine. I can hear the white lycan banging around in panic as I pull out of the harbour.

I kept going for about 20 minutes, until we were far enough out that I was no longer worried about them following me, we wouldn't be bothered. I turned off the boat and started to walk down to the deck. As I get to the door I reach for the handle, and it's then I can feel him. Stood just on the otherside of the door. I could feel his heat, I could smell his scent. I could smell his blood. Just as my hand touched the doorknob it turned. As the door swung open slowly, there he stood, but not as I thought he'd be. He was in his human form, he was as magnificent now as he was in lycan form. Only his eyes weren't a bright gold, they were a frozen green. I had never seen eyes like his before, a bright light green around his pupil and a frost like outer edge with tints of green. I could not take my eyes from his. When I finally pulled my eyes from his, I noticed his hair was still white, not grey, but a bright white colour, down just past his shoulders. His beautifully smooth olive coloured skin distracted me from his hair, it's then that I saw the large slash on his side, he stood with one of his hands clutching it.