Clouds of Thought

Failed

Why do I feel like I failed?

As my soul cries and wails.

I know I failed thee

And please forgive me

I didn't know it would be the end

The day before you were dead.

And I was too late to say goodbye

I had left with a lie.

I can never forgive myself

If only I had stayed, or gone earlier to see thyself.

I wouldn't feel as bad

As I do now, and will always have had.

Yet I did not fail just you

I failed other too.

My friends who needed me

Are searching for answers of any

I could not help them all

No matter who was to call.

I had failed him as well

I wasn't good enough to be swell

And he will suffer from it

But then again he made my hope  be lit.

Though one day he will leave me

And I will be sad as can be.

Though aren't I sad enough

With everything being so tough?

Though the future will bring more tragedies

All of which directed on me.

Will I be ready?

Or will I die with pain steady?