Madeline's POV: I woke up the next morning and Jordan and Camila were gone. My heart started beating fast. I opened my door and walked out to the living room, I saw Camila in the kitchen. "Where's Jordan?" I asked. "He had to go to rehearsal with the band, he didn't want to wake you" she said and I nodded. I ate breakfast and got ready for work. I put on a yellow oversized sweatshirt and leggings, I didn't really care what I looked like today, I was so tired.
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I got in the car and drove to work. I worked for 12 hours and then I was done. I was driving home and I found myself spacing out. I tried not to be so I could drive home. When I got the the apartment I just stood there and stared at the door. I snapped out of it, and went in. I started feeling dizzy so I sat on the couch. A weird feeling came over me. I was just thinking about everything. My parents, Travis, when my brother died. It really messed me up. I went into the bathroom and grabbed the box of razors from the cabinet and stood in front of the sink. I looked at my rear stained face in the mirror. My phone started ringing. I looked and it was Jordan. I let it ring. My hands shook as the razor grazed my skin. I flinched a bit and let the blood drop into the sink. Jordan called again and I didn't pick t up. I cut a few more times and wrapped my arm in bandage tape, and rolled my sleeve down to hide it. Jordan texted me, J: You ok? M: yeah J: do you wanna hang out tonight M: no J: umm ok, maybe tomorrow then? M: no Jordan's POV: I was confused by Maddie's text. She always wants to hang out, I started to get worried. I texted Camila; J: hey are you home? C: no but Maddie is, why? J: she's being really weird and I'm not sure what's going on C: what do you mean weird? J: I called her twice, she didn't answer. And I texted her to ask if she wanted to hang and she said no, then I said maybe tomorrow and she said no. C: she hates when people reply with one word texts, and she never does that J: I know C: something's definitely wrong, I'll be home soon J: let me know, I'm really worried. C: I will
Camilas POV: I got back to the apartment and just saw Madeline sitting on the couch staring at the blank tv screen. "Hey Mads" I said sitting next to her. She didn't say anything. "You ok?" I asked. "What? Yeah" she said snapping out of whatever daze she was in. "Jordan's worried about you" I told her. "Why" She asked still staring at the tv. "Because your being weird, you don't want to hang with him? You always wanna be with Jordan" I explained. "Well Maybe I've changed" she said getting angry. "Are you breaking up with him?!" I asked hoping that wasn't the case. "No" she said. Thank god. "Then what's going on with you?" I asked. "Nothing! God just leave me the fuck alone!" She yelled, getting up and running to her room. C: something is going on with her J: what happened? C: I got home and she was just sitting on the couch, in a daze. I tried to ask her what's wrong and she blew up at me J: she never does this C: this is how she acted when her brother died J: what do you mean? She's an only child C: she never told you? J: told me what? C: ok. I'm going to tell you this but only because I know that You would never hurt Maddie. C: Maddie had a brother. Charlie. He died in a car crash 3 years ago. J: shit C: yeah, they were really close, he's a few years older then her, but they told each other everything. J: I can't imagine what that's like for her. C: She got really depressed when he died, even more then she was already J: do you think she is suicidal? C: I don't know, I mean I know she's tried to but I don't know now. J: I don't want to make her upset, so can you just keep an eye on her? C: yeah if course I went into her room and knocked on her door. I walked in and she was looking at pictures of her brother on her bed. I sat down next to her and put my arm around her she reached to grab a picture and I saw her sleeve go up. Her arm was wrapped in gauze. I grabbed her hand and fully punched up her sleeve. "Maddie..." I said. She pulled her arm away. "Don't tell Jordan. He'll be so mad at me" she said through her tears. "Maddie, you seriously think that? He won't be mad at you, he's so worried about you, he loves you. Your so lucky to have a guy like him" I explained. She smiled a bit. "I should apologize to him" she said. I nodded in agreement. -
Madeline's POV: I heard a knock on the door and I opened it, seeing Jordan there. I smiled and he smiled back. He came in and we sat on the couch. "Hey" I said. "Hey". "I'm sorry for how I acted today, I've just been in this sorta daze all day, and I don't know why, Ive been thinking a lot about things. My family..." I started. "Maddie, I'm so sorry about your brother" he said. "What?" I asked confused. "Camila told me, what happened" he said. "Are you serious right now?! That's private information, She's the only one who knows!" I yelled standing up, he stood up too. "Maddie calm down, it's not like I'm gonna tell anyone" he explained. "I don't give a shit Jordan! I don't want anyone knowing about my brother!" I said, anger building inside of me. "Maddie-" he said, but I cut him off, "No, just get out" I said. "What?". "Get the fuck out!" I yelled pushing him. "Maddie!" He said. "Get out! Get out! Get out!!" I screamed punching his chest and pushing him towards the door, as tears poured from my eyes. He put his arms around me and I cried hysterically into his chest. He hugged me tighter, calming me down a bit. We sunk to the floor, me still in his arms. "Shhh" he whispered in my ear, running his fingers through my hair. -
We were laying in my bed, my arms still haven't moved from around his chest and his around me. He looked at me and I looked at him. No matter how upset I was, he was still so fucking cute. "Your so beautiful" he said, still looking at me. I smiled a bit. "Im so so sorry Jordan. I shouldn't have pummeled you like that. You did nothing" I said. "It's ok. You were just upset" he said. I kissed him and he kissed back. I put my hand on his cheek, continuing to kiss him. I didn't realize my sleeve was rolled up, exposing the gauze. He opened his eyes after we pulled away from the kiss and looked at my arm. It looked like ig is heart dropped. His face was blank. I started tearing up. "Maddie-" he started. "I'm sorry" I cried. He held me tighter, and closer to him, my head on his shoulder and his on mine. "It's ok" he whispered, he rubbed my back up and down. "You can't do this Maddie" he said. "I know. I'm sorry" I kept saying. "Stop apologizing. It's ok" he kept saying back. "Sometimes I just feel so damaged. And so much like a burden" I explained through my tears. "Mads, your the opposite of both those things" he said. It was an emotionally over whelming night. But I'm not sure I would have made it through the night without him. The next morning, he left cause he had a recording session. I didn't have work today so I decided to repaint the living room. It was in great need of it. It was Gray right now and I planned on painting in teal. I got dressed and ready, and I left to go to Home Depot to get paint. I walked in and went to the paint section. I grabbed 2 cans and starting walking to check out. That's when I saw Travis walking towards me. My heart started beating so fast. I started feeling dizzy, I dropped the paint cans and fainted, falling to the floor. -
I woke upon someone's lap. I opened my eyes and looked up to see Jordan. "What's going on?" I asked. "You fainted. What happened?" He asked. "I don't know, I think I got scared when I saw Travis, and I just fainted" I explained. "What? Where was Travis?" He asked. "I saw him walking toward me in the store. I looked around, "where are we?" I asked, "We're in the backroom in Home Depot, one of the workers checked your phone for emergency contacts when you fainted, and they called me. "I thought you were recording today" I said. "Yeah, we ended early, and I was on my way home when I got the call, I was literally just passing this place" he explained. I nodded. "I should probably get home, I was planning on painting the living room" I told him. "all by yourself? I could go back with you and help" he offered, I smiled, "really?", "Of course" he responded. He helped me up and we walked out to the parking lot. "Your sure you can drive?" He asked. "Yeah I'm feeling better now" I reassured him. He nodded and we left -
"Ugh!" We both yelled throwing ourselves on the couch, exhausted from painting. "Thank you for helping me" I said turning to him. "Of course" he smiled. He leaned over and pecked my lips. I looked at my hair. "You have paint in your hair" he said smiling, wiping it out. I smiled and leaned my head on his shoulder.
