My Forbidden Mate

Chapter 7

We walk inside my house without a word to one another and Sabrina comes in just as we start taking our shoes off at the door. "Hey," She says to me as she walks over to Jackson. She turns away from me pulling Jackson into a hug. And I want nothing more than to tear her off him and tell her he's mine and that he isn't  going to marry her because he doesn't love her. Jackson watches me over her shoulder as he returns her hug. They let go of each other after what seems agonizingly long and Sabrina spares us both a glance. "I just got home and I thought you two would be here. Did you guys go somewhere? Together?"

I look at Jackson, having no clue what to say. I can't tell her that her fiancé is my mate that's for damn sure. He puts his arm around her shoulder pulling her into his side. "Yeah she was hungry when she got home from school and so was I. I figured I should get to know my future sister in law so we went and grabbed a bite."

Sister in law? Oh god I think I'm going to vomit.

She nods and smiles as if that makes perfect sense. I smile back and then head towards my room. "Wait Alison, can we talk?" I look over at my sister who has begun following me into my room. 

"Uh, sure."

I sit on the edge of my bed and she joins me. "Listen I wanted to talk about the other night when I told you we were engaged."

I tense. Oh no. She knows. "Sabrina it's not-"

"Your jealous."

I stop mid sentence and look at her. "What?"

She nods sympathetically, "I've found my mate and he's this amazing man who is the strongest alpha alive and your still looking for yours. It's ok I get it. I just want you to know that... you are an amazing girl and I know I'm not always the best big sister but I love you. And you will find your mate and he will be everything you could ask for. You will be the love of his life and it will be beautiful."

I look at my sister in shock. We aren't close. So to have her tell me she loves me and that she wants me to be happy is... well it's a lot. I hug her and she laughs in surprise. "Thank you." I whisper. She squeezes me one last time and then gets up heading out the door.

I watch her go and it's not until I hear the click of the door closing that I let my tears fall for the second time today. I can't help but feel guilty. Guilty that all I want is for Jackson to come in here and tell me he needs me. That he's calling the engagement off. But most of all I feel sad. Because my sister was wrong. Because I already found my mate and he doesn't love me nor is it beautiful. It's ugly, angry, and cold. She was so very wrong.

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The next few days pass by in a blur. Jackson has been taking me to and from school and we have been going to the woods to practice right after. Sabrina isn't awake when we leave in the morning and isn't  home when we get back ever so she is none the wiser to what's going on. Although there's not much to tell. We don't talk much. I learned a few things about his life though. His pack is called starlight. They are the biggest and strongest. He and his pack live far away from here in a mountain area of North Carolina. And that's all I know. We mostly just practice with my fighting skills and keep the talking to a minimum. And the touching. We try not to do a lot of that unless it's a punch or kick. Sometimes I catch him staring at me. Most of the time he's looking at my body or my lips. And when he's not looking at me I'm looking at him. But that's all it is. Stolen glances.

Today is Saturday and I'm thankful to be able to sleep in. It's my birthday but I don't expect a cake or someone to sing me happy birthday. Because it's also the day my mother, Sabrina's mother and my fathers mate died. They will be at her grave all day I'm sure.  I don't blame them. This is not a happy day for them and I've accepted that. I've accepted that her death is my fault and they will always blame me for that. Because I will always blame myself.

I get out of bed at 10:30 and am assaulted by the smell of bacon and pancakes coming from the kitchen. I get up and this time knowing it's most likely Jackson I put on a bra and hoodie with a pair of leggings.

Walking into the kitchen I'm entranced by the sight before me. Jackson humming along to a nickelback song as he flips pancakes onto a plate and crunches on some bacon. I laugh and he looks up almost dropping his piece of bacon. He starts coughing, apparently choking on said bacon.

He smiles at me after taking a sip of water to clear his throat. "I made breakfast. Come. Sit with me."

I don't say anything as I settle into a seat at the kitchen counter. He sits across from me, handing me a plate with way to much food. I look up at him, raising an eyebrow. "I've been here a week. You don't eat much. That needs to change."

I try looking annoyed as I crunch on my bacon but I can't help but smile a little. He cares. Not enough to be with me but he cares. After we eat I set my plate in the sink and start to wash dishes. "Oh no you don't."  He swipes the plate from hand. "I can clean up."

I laugh. "Ok who told you?"

He looks at me, "told me what?"

I look at him. Does he think I'm dumb. "Who told you it's my birthday? Why else would you do all this?"

His eyes go big as if he truly didn't know. "It's your birthday?"

I nod.

"How old are you?"

I frown, "My sister didn't tell you how old her sister was before you came here."

He looks at me blankly as he says,"she didn't tell me she even had a sister until I got here. That day we met was the first I had ever heard of you."

I flinch. My sister didn't even think to mention me to the man she was planning on marrying. Nor did my father who had met him a couple times before. As much as I tried not to let it that stung.

Jackson clears his throat, drawing me back to our conversation. "Oh sorry. Um today is my 18th birthday."

He smiles tightly, "Happy birthday Alison."

I think that's the first time he's called me by my name. I like the way it sounds when he says it.

I smile. "Yeah well anyways um thank you for breakfast, it was delicious. But uh I have to go to the mall. Soooo I'll uh see you later maybe."

He nods but doesn't say anything. But the whole time I'm grabbing my things I feel his eyes on me. And when I pull out of the driveway and head to the mall to pick out something to wear to the club tonight I know he's watching me.

Later that day I head home, happy with my purchase. However I am completely dreading going out tonight. All I want to do is lay in bed and forget about this day and what it truly means. But Tana is already on her way to pick me up and all our friends will be there tonight. I park my car and notice that Sabrinas car and Jackson's car are here. My fathers car however is not. I open the door which is unlocked. I head to my room passing Sabrina's on the way. I freeze when I hear voices. No not voices exactly. Moaning. "Hmmm yes, yes, yes, right there. Oh god yes. Harder. Harder, ugh yeeeeessssss!" I cover my mouth in horror. I feel tears well up in my eyes, on the verge of falling. I hurry into my room, not wanting to hear anymore of what Jackson is doing to my sister in there.

I can't believe I fell for his act this morning. He doesn't care about me. Him having sex with my sister knowing damn well I'm his mate just proves it. Damn it, I'm so stupid. Well not anymore. I'm done with this bullshit.

I wipe the tears from my face and open my bag containing my outfit for tonight. Suddenly going out seems like a great option. I slip on the tight little dress I got and look in the mirror. It's a tight black dress with little spaghetti straps and it reaches about mid thigh. All together  it's not something I would usually wear but now I'm glad I am. I do my hair in wavy curls and add a Smokey eye and red lipstick to complete the look.  Stepping into a pair of small heels I grab my phone and text Tana that I'm ready and to pick me up. walk over to the mirror before I go. I look at my reflection in the mirror and try to feel as confident as I look. Tonight I am someone else. I'm not the girl pining over a man who doesn't want her. I'm a girl looking for a good time. I won't let Jackson hurt me anymore. If he wants to be with my sister then fine. I'll find someone else too.

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