My lovely man

Part 25

While the bus skimmed along the streets of LA, I gazed in abstraction out of the window and simply felt nothing but confused. In my head I played the scenario from today, over and over again. God Anna you are a really bad person, I thought to myself. You simply left John behind, once again. I felt really sorry for him ,my  guilty conscience was killing me.

After half an hour I finally arrived at Anthony's and as I got out of the bus, I looked around. Oh well here I am again, I thought to myself, I didn't even know what I was going to say to him. While I was walking up to his house, I felt like someone was observing me. I don't know, maybe I was a bit paranoid but after all what happened to me, who can blame me. My legs were about to give up and I was simply at the end of my rope. I couldn't get John's voice, screaming out of the elevator, out of my head. It got stuck. So I clung my hands harder  around my guitar case and started walking faster, cause I was scared that some Nicole would appear and beat the hell out of me. Finally I got to the front door and started ringing. I ringed about 20 times but nobody  answered me. Then I walked around the house and tried to get from the backyard in. The curtains of the living room, were all closed. To be honest I really expected the worst, when I tried to open the door. I stepped in, although I could barely see something, i sensed that the room was a fucking mess. I mean two days passed, since I left and it already descent into chaos. Finally I opened the curtains. The floor was covered in empty bottles and all kinds of other shit, as I tried to step over, without breaking my neck.

"Anthony? I asked, are you there?"

I got no response, so I decided to walk the stairs up, to his bedroom. My whole body was shaking  now and my heart starting racing, cause I wasn't sure, what I would expect in there. I tiptoed towards his bedroom, with a lump in my throat, I was so nervous and scared. Then I knocked at his door.

"Anthony? Are you in there?"

I waited for a few minutes, but I got impatient, so I opened the door and walked in. The room also was covered in blackness.

"Jesus I thought to myself, what is wrong with that man!"

So I parted the curtains, only to find an empty unmade bed. I looked around the room, it looked a lot worse than the living room. It really disgusted me to be in here, after Flea told me about the girls, that visited him. So I was about to walk out when I heard an enthusiastic voice saying

"Jesus Christ, Anna is it you or am I just dreaming?"

I turned around. There he was standing in the door sill of the bathroom, looking at me with, his eyes shining like a kid who sees a chocolate Easter bunny.

Anthony's POV

I simply couldn't believe my eyes, there she was standing. I tried to figure out if this was just a dream. Immediately I forgot about all the shit that happened. I simply was happy to have her here again. But I noticed how she was looking alternating at me and around the room.

"I...gosh Anna babe, I feel so embarrassed that you have to come upon this mess!" i said as i rubbed nervously my neck.

"Anthony, what in heaven's name happened in here? It's only been two days, since I left!" she sighed

It really embarrassed me and I didn't know what to say. Then I cleared my throat and confessed

"Anna, you must be really disappointed by me now, but I swear to god that not a single thing happened in here...!"

"But what about this girl leaving your house, when Flea came to you?"

I got nervous as hell.

"Flea told you that?"

Anna looking down on the floor and simply nodded.

I couldn't speak a word.

"You you... slept with her, didn't you?" she mumbled