My lovely man

Part 24- John or Anthony?

Anna's POV

I walked. I simply walked. I didn't know where to go, neither what to do. I have to admit it was pretty stupid to leave John, but I just couldn't handle the situation anymore. Looking around while walking, I searched for a bus station. But where should I go? My stuff started to getting heavy, so instead I looked out for a café or a bar, somewhere where I can sit down for a while. Thank god I found a little coffee shop. I walked in and I really liked the atmosphere. I found a free place, near the window. Actually it was perfect, cause the sun was shining through the glass and I sank into this cozy armchair. I ordered a cup of coffee and was deep in thought.

"Anna right?" I heard a voice asking me.

I turned around and looked surprised at Flea.

"Yes that's me!"

"Would you mind if I sit with you, for a few minutes?"

"Uhm...sure, why not!" I said, still very surprised.

"Okay,I guess you must be shocked to see me here, right?!"

"Mh, a little bit. I really didn't expect you here!"

"I hope you don't think that I am stalking you or something like that. I was by chance here and then I saw you sitting here." Flea said.

" No it's okay. But how did you recognize me, I mean we've never met before, but oh well I guess through Anthony."

Flea nodded.

"Yes that's right. In case of Anthony, I want to speak to you!"

I knew it, I thought to myself. I dug my fingers into the leather of the armchair.

" Flea, you know I appreciate your...!"

"No Anna, please let me finish. I'm not here to act as a guardian for you!"

"Okay then, talk!"

" So I called Anthony today and normally he immediately answers the phone. Today he didn't and I started worrying. So I decided to drive to his place and see if everything's alright. I kept ringing the bell, but still no answer. Then after a couple of minutes, a foreign girl appeared and walked out of the front door. I was astonished, cause I expected you. She was about to left, when I grabbed her, asking why she visited him and she simply said

"Well, nobody says no to Anthony Kiedis, when he calls you up!"

This really pissed me off, so I went in and the house was simply a mess. You know I know Anthony now for so long and he sure was a wild guy back when he used to be young and on drugs, but as he got older he really changed, in a positive way of course. Anyways I shouted out, in hope he would hear me..."

"Flea I'm sorry but why are you keep telling me all this?"

"Cause you need to speak to him again, trust me he doesn't hate you, I know him for so long now, that I know exactly how he reacts for years now, to these kind of situations!"

"I don't get it quite Flea, I can't go back to him, I betrayed him in the worst way and!"

"Trust me. It may seems that he doesn't care about you, but he bitterly regrets it, he really does!"

I couldn't deal anymore with my emotions. I was confused and felt hopeless. I didn't know what to do. Go back to Anthony? Or back to John? I broke both hearts...

Then Flea grabbed my hand and said

"Anna, trust me, you will not regret it, go to Anthony and talk to him. He really loves you!"

He gently squeezed my hand and smiled warmly at me.

"I really have to go now Anna, I realy hope you take my words to heart"

He really gave me a long hug, before he left. To be honest, I really needed this now. It gave me new strength, to continue.

"Flea!" I said

He turned around

"Yes, Anna?"

"Thank you so much!" I said

"No need to thank me Anna, I wish you good luck!"

So he went off and I stayed a little while in this coffee shop, thinking about what I'm going to do.

Deep inside, I wanted to go back to Anthony. He really was my man, my lifesaver, my everything. But on the other hand, I longed for John. Thinking that I left him back there in the hotel, broke my heart. He was so protective towards me.

Anyway, I decided to take the bus back to Anthony. I grabbed my stuff ,paid for my coffee and made my way to the bus station. While I was sitting in the bus, it came to my mind, to check my voicemail on my mobile phone. As I opened I read

30 unanswered phone calls from Tony babe and 10 voicemails from John and Tony.

I listened to the newest voicemail, it was from John

Anna baby, where are you? Why did you leave? I'm fucking sorry that I forgot to tell Nicole, god I'm so fucking sorry, but I can't handle it, being separated from you...for Christ sake I LOVE YOU-sobbing-PLEASE COME BACK!!!!

Jesus Christ, his voice sounded so shaky and he also was sobbing. God I'm breaking this man.

-cought slightly- Fuck what should I say Anna. I'm lying all  alone here in the dark, uhm still holding your dress-drew a deep breath- it....it  still smells like you...I fucking miss you babe. I'm so sorry, I just wish you would come back, you know....HOME!

I was in an awkward position. Both John and Anthony wanted me back and I was already on my way to Anthony. I simply couldn't decide, for whom my love was stronger.