The Motel

Summertime Sadness

Vincent^

Lana...

Lana my love, light of my life, fire of my sorrows. My gift, my pain, Elizabeth. With a joke we shared, our greatest moment, bestowed upon us... Lana.

She was Liz, just Liz by her father. She was Lizbeth by her closest. And Elizabeth on paper. But to me, she was always...my Lana.

I was born and blessed with Vincent on the early morning of October 23, 1996. But rather cursed with the greatest gift 17 years later. Raised in a broken home, caused by my father and ran away with my mother at the age of 14. The unstable household beginning at 7am, at 7 years old, and finally ending after 7 years at 7pm. My angels, have chosen their gift for me. The day my Lana was gone, at the 7th hour, of the 7th day, of the 7th month. My life revolved around those numbers. No surprise if I left in the same manner. Its been 7 years since she was gone. As I am now 27 years of age. This is the story of my prime time as well as my lowest hour. No picture perfect ending you expect, but even so within those years I lived a dream. I want to share what it was like to fall in love, be in love, and as well as share the mark of the end of an ecstatic era.

10 YEARS AGO:
Junior Year•Hallway Lockers

"Hey Vincent are you going to the field trip?"Asked Luis.
"What field trip are you talking about?" I asked "THE ONE IN CALIFORNIA YOU IDIOT!" He said.
"Luis I'm not going to that" I told him.
"Why the hell not? everyone is going" he said in an annoyed tone.
"By *everyone* you mean the popular crowd?" I snapped.
"YESSS! Come on you and I gotta go" he said eagerly.
"Why?, I'm not really interested in meeting new people." I questioned.
"We get to skip school." he replied
"I-I don't know, what if my mom needs me? Either way I just don't know if I'll even have fun." I said
"That only happens because YOU decide not  and that's on you" he stated.
"Ok then, try to convince me with one word as a reason to go" I said confidently.
"Solange" he teased.
"Are you serious?, don't use her against me, you know I can't even go up to her" I said.
"Of course you can't because you haven't grown some balls. Just take the shot.. you miss 100% of every shot you don't take" he quoted.
"I know you've told me like a thousand times" I said.
"And I'll keep on saying it till it gets though your head. Also I wanna go with my best bud and maybe just maybe you'll meet someone there." He said sarcastically.
"Oh really and have like a one night stand like a certain someone?" I said sarcastically back. "That could work too" he replied with a sardonic look.
"You're delusional Luis" I said as I closed my locker.
"I have my reasons and you really need to get laid" he stated.
"No I don't, I'm perfectly fine" I stated.
"All right *sighs* I guess you'll stay a virgin forever. I might even begin to question if you're even straight" He said sadistically.
"Shut up, you know I'm crushing on Solange, either way I have get going; I got to study for my physics final" I said.
"Hey, say you'll consider going?" He asked.
"If I say I'll think about it will you leave me alone?" I said.
"Sure BUT ACTUALLY THINK ABOUT IT" he yelled.
"Fine I will, I'll see you tomorrow" I replied.
"Adios mi amigo" he joked.

Vincent's POV: His House

Luis may be pushy, but he has a good heart. He's always diving with the right intentions so I can't ever be mad at him. I'm not the type to socialize at a dinner party, let alone with random strangers in a completely different state. Luis has always been the more outspoken and bold one, I admire that about him. Sometimes I wish that confidence would come to me as naturally as it does for him.

*Sighs*
My head is throbbing, I need to eat something and take a nap. Today was a long day of studying, so I'll order some Chinese Takeout. I'm craving some egg rolls and ragoons.
•••
NEXT MORNING:
7:19am
*groans* *yawns*
OH SHIT

...
7:56am
God damn it I forgot my things at home. Fuck I gotta find a calculous book before class starts or I'm seriously screwed.  Mhhmmm...I'll ask Luis if I can borrow his textbook.

"Hey Vincent you thought about the trip?"He asked as he walked up to me.
"Yeah, but I have a question" I said.
"What is it?" He said.
"Can I borrow your textbook for Calculus?" I asked.
"Dude you know I haven't touched that shit since I got it, I believe it's somewhere in my locker I'll get it for you" He said.
"Ok thanks I left mine at home" I stated.
"You were late weren't you" he said with a smile.
"Yes" I sighed.
"Alright, I'll go get that textbook for you be back in 2" he said as he sprinted to his locker.
•••
LIBRARY:
Well I got the book and now I just need to study for a bit since I barely studied for Cal yesterday.

After 2 hrs
Fuck I didn't get to the last part, hopefully its not on the test or else I'm screwed. I need to be more organized with my time.
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Calculous:Vincent's Head
HOW THE ACTUAL FUCK ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO THIS GOD DAMN IT! I knew I should have studied that section first instead of studying the other shit I know by heart. GOD IM STUPID! Actually you know what? Im tired, probably even burnt out at this point. This trip could help me loosen up and relax..... fuck it, Im going. Beats having to stay doing meaningless work here.

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Hi everyone, I hope you all enjoyed this little intro. I tried my best to sound like those professional literary books in the beginning, but I'm 17, so I'll keep it as simple as possible and more relatable. This chapter may have been short, but as you keep reading, each chapter will be longer. Thanks for stopping by :)