It feels like I don't have friends right now in all honesty. I don't want to start a fight but I need people to hang out with and my moms out of town. You guys are my only friends and I understand you were st your dads I'm not blaming anyone for not being able to it just feelings like when you guys can you don't want to? I'm tired of hanging out with sarah and aiden alone because they're so cute and hurts to see. And Derek just got you a ring and I had to say nothing while you say there happy. I'm happy for you I really am I just can't say anything without breaking down into tears. I feel like I'm driving you guys away and I can't turn this car around and it's annoying you guys how much I talk about trying to find another guy or about Cameron or about the fact that I ask you guys to hang out every chance I get just to be shot down with an I'm busy or I can't or no. I have to get over things by myself now and it sucks I hate feeling alone when I just pushed the most important person in my life off a cliff and I can't undo that. I'm sorry for the rant but writing my phone all the time isn't
going to stop these feelings
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The message I almost sent my friend but instead I sent "it's fine"
YOU ARE READING
Thoughts
RomanceI've always been one to keep quiet and write my thoughts. Afraid to actually tell people. Here no one knows who I am and some people can relate to the things i'm saying.
